Mindless brains

credits to camiloo :)

I see a lollipop. Hmm, that's interesting because I love lollipops :) well aside from that. You see, it may seem like a happy picture but well that's not the point. No it's not a happy post actually but I love lollipops you see so there we go.

If you really have the time to take a look back, there were so many things I could have accomplished in my life. It's just that time of the year where after your last exam paper and last final paper of high school you tend to sit back and think. 

What are we going to do for the rest of our lives?

I have always been inspired by my friends. Many friends. I could have been so much more than just an average girl. The reason why I joined so many sports, choirs, musicals and expeditions. It was just so that I could gain my interest in them. I studied extra hard so that I could gain my excellent results and what not. I'm a singer but I'm in the choir, I'm not a dancer but I joined cheerleading. I'm not an athletic person but I joined so many sports just so I could gain recognition from others, to make my own name.

But how is it that, some people don't have to do anything at all but they are just so, well known straight away?

I wish I could be someone else. That was what I always say. 

I wish I was more sporting, more loving, more musical, more defined with what I have now.

But, I take that all back.

Why should I be all that? When I can just be myself alone? Why should I force myself into joining sports I don't love and singing when I am just not as good as the others? Surely enough I love singing, but not as a career. I love dancing, but as a hobby, not as a career. I love sports but not as a career.

I love piano, but never in my life I would take it as my profession. Guitar is my interest but I am not musically inclined. I am not tone deaf but my interest is just not in there. My heart belongs to the artistic world yes, because I love art. I love drawing even if people seem to hate it so much. Even if people seem to stress about it so much but I never ever felt stressed about art (except for the folio yes). I love graphic designing. I am not good like the many others but I love it because I want people to know my work, comment, critic and I would like to share my own piece to the whole world.

Like how Andrea Bocelli shared his voice and songs to the whole world. Like how Mother Theresa shared her peace and joy to the world. Like how Earth shared its life to us all.

I want people to be inspired by my works. I want people to look at my works and comment. Even if they're bad or good, I still appreciate my work. 

People keep asking me, "Hey, you're doing a-levels?"

No, I am not for the final time and never would I ever do A-levels. I am still thinking about my foundation but no, not a-levels. I am yet to look for colleges but I shall leave that for later. I am enjoying my art classes and hope to take them until I leave for college. 

This year has been great for me. Through this, I realised what I really loved and what I don't really loved or have interest in it. I realised how I deeply understand myself even more with the help of my friends and understand the meaning of enjoying the best moments of life even if it fails you.

Because I am happy being me.

I can change for the better but I don't wanna be someone else. I want to be me. Average but awesome. I am happy for the talent that I am given, happy for the things I loved doing most and most of all, happy that I am living in this life with no regrets.

A phrase that will haunt you for life is, "If I just could..." or.."If I have.."

live the life you love, love the life you live.

you're only 17 once, live it.