So how now?

Sunday, November 29, 2009

What a day?

Okay, I've been revising accounts for the past few days and my head is really getting the symptoms. Too much Accounts.

Aside from that, I don't know what I'll be drawing for Art because I can't seem to find my paper anywhere but but but, I do roughly know the questions.

And the most obvious one is the watermelon house, which I highly doubt I want to draw it. Because it looks really, well annoying?

But I might consider the fish tank one cause it's cool and I wanna try :)

Now, I want to try using tumblr because I want to have a proper blog so that I can rant about ANYTHING interesting and also, blogger is a little too bleh for me. So I am going to try out tumblr. For the time being.

Friday, November 27, 2009

New Moooooo-N

Yes yesterday night, I went to watch New Moon with MooWoo, MJ and Janice. Well, I might wanna brag a bit here and there but oh well, yeah. I'm just gonna say it.

Wait, of course let me put some posters up so that you'll know what I'm talking about.


Over all?

I like it better than Twilight. But the slow moving pace scenes are really annoying and disturbing. Sure it has more humour to it but it could have been done better. So much better. The thing is, they should really change the actors and actresses. Ashley Greene is fine cause she portrays Alice just like how Alice should be. But Bella? Goodness. I don't mean to say she's BAD but Kristen really can't pull it off. Yes, Bella is annoying in the book but looking at Kristen acting out as her, oh my goodness. And Robert Pattinson (Pattison whatever), he has the most disturbing effect of a vampire. The moment he took off his shirt, my eyes just could just drop out from my sockets. Yes, it was that EYESORE. Where as Jacob played by Taylor Lautner, wasn't that bad either. He had the abs, buff daddy look but I don't know, he's a little lack of something as well.

Overall, I didn't like this book either but hopefully they pull of Eclipse better because the last few parts of Eclipse is the one that's gonna bring out the challenge. 

And this movie?

I rate it 3.5/5. I rated Twilight 2 because it was THAT BAD. And that book was my favourite book of all and I rated it 2 for the movie.

And the ending of New Moon? Abrupt, Absurd, Ludicrous.

Match it up? Yes.

And even better, I wish they didn't have to make a movie out of Twilight. I mean not because I hate the book or anything but it's so hard to just imagine the Godly Edward Cullen that Stephenie Meyer described to be portrayed by HIM. 

But all in all, I'll still keep watching. 

Till well, it gets better and better. 

I quote from Stephen King.

"The real difference [between J.K. Rowling and Meyer] is that JK Rowling is a terrific writer, and Stephenie Meyer can't write worth a darn. She's not very good." However, King understood the appeal of the series, adding, "People are attracted by the stories, by the pace and in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it's very clear that she's writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books. It's exciting and it's thrilling and it's not particularly threatening because it's not overly sexual."

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Materialistic matters

So you see, just now. I was out with my mum and my younger sister for a shopping spree at my mum's stack of heaven. I was there, with the store attendants asking me try out EVERY FREAKING SHIRT/LEGGINGS/TIGHTS/SHORTS/PANTS they could reach. 

And with that, I was of course annoyed but finally out of the thousands of pile, I only bought one top. I know so pathetic. 

Now this is the best bit.

You see, I never had a handbag of my own cause I've been using my sister's/mum's hand me downs. Second hand. So I was looking through some handbags and then my mum showed me this, purple 'PRADA' bag which was really, really nice! The cutting was really nice for some reason I liked it. So my mum said, just go get it.

Yeah. So my first happiness.

Second, there was this white watch that was so pretty. It was slick and sexy. So I told my mum this is nice. So well I got it.

And now, the best part.

The bag cost me my LIFE. It was THAT EXPENSIVE. And needless to say about the watch? In total for those bloody things, I spent 1000+ over. My heart sank.

If I knew, it was THAT expensive, I wouldn't buy it (call me cheap but yes I am that particular about prices)

Throughout the entire journey I was very gloomy but well at least this taught me something.

"ALWAYS LOOK AT THE PRICE FIRST BEFORE BEING BLINDED BY IT'S GLAM."

Sigh such a painful lesson. There goes my savings.

And the moral of the story is?

Today, I sat for my final Pendidikan Moral exam. Yes it's the SPM one. Now I'm not gonna brag about how the paper was because to me, it's all the same. But while doing the paper and upon re-checking it, I thought about something. Something that needs to be done but somehow, people failed to realise this.

The point of learning Moral. That is the big question. Many people asked the ministry, "Why is Moral a compulsory subject?"

And they even dare, DARE to even explain about how the crime rates are going up and how moral needs to be exposed to children at a tender age. But honestly, did that really worked?

If really, MORAL was an inspiring subject, the crime rates would have dropped miraculously, leaving just the good people to die for. Does this mean we have to study all 36 moral values and burn them into our brain till we're old and grey? The only thing people remember from this exam paper is how bullshit it is. 

I am not insulting my country's education system but I'm actually questioning them about the education system they're revolving around. It is something we learn through experiences, life threatening moments, memories, exposure but not through books. Books, I believed are inspirations which you can learn from and it will last forever. Like Mitch Albom. He doesn't even need to list out 36 moral values and yet he made a big impact to readers who are just awed by his simple language but yet, beautiful sentence construction and choice of words.

But what about our Moral textbook? Moral values? We gruel them everyday, for almost two years and in the end, we get nothing. Why?

That's because, it's an examination.

An examination to test your moral values? I beg to differ. I can laugh my ass all the way to college saying, hey we have an exam for moral! And it's a compulsory one!

Aren't moral values something we learn through the little things in life that makes it so imperfect? Aren't moral values something that we do not need to know it's definition but know the depths of reaching out to people who need them? Aren't moral values the teachers instead of the books being the teachers and teaching us about moral values? Aren't moral values something that we cannot absorb and study hard for it but something that we have learn through the everyday things that we encounter?

Why do we even have to memorise so much and yet in the end, we don't apply these rules to the principles of life? Why is it that those who scored 17 A1's but apparently, failed entrance exams in high standards and means of college exams internationally? Why is that even high school drop outs are prancing into fame without even studying that much of their school life and yet they make it to the top?

Why is that you are choosing for us? Aren't we a democratic country? Can't we students, choose on how we live our education life instead of spoonfeeding us with bottles of information and all we just do is apply to our exams and forget them in the afterlives? 

Why can't we choose?

Are we your guinea pigs?

You're not the one who's going to college. You're not the one who's going to have their next career up in their line. You're not the one who's going to live our lives. Aren't we the future?

Do us, ALL OF US a favour.

Stop messing with our education and get it right. Do what's best for the country. Think before you even decide. Do what's best for the love of our Motherland. Make this country, Malaysia a better place for us to live in, even without the moral values that we need to memorise, we still can make a difference if we all work together. Stop being a bitch and start thinking of the future of our country.

And lastly.

stop messing around with the education system.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

DA Updates: Going Green!


Going Green by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Nuff said. SAVE THE WORLD!

Totally, illustrated by me which explains the ugly transformation. ENJOY.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

It's time?

Yeah, I just sat for three SPM papers. BM 1 & 2 and Sejarah.

My thoughts?

So far so good. It's alright. I am quite satisfied with Sejarah though. BM 1 yes but BM 2 a little shaky there but still good enough to call it OKAY.

:)

see you soon.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Sigh, how?

i need..

someone to talk to.

but i keep pushing people away.

sigh.

i want to die so badly.
but what will become of me?

if you're hearing this.

i'm sorry.

i am.

i want us to be happy but i'm just making it bad.

sigh.

what should i do?

i am lost.


talk to me please?

well..i'm pretty sure you'll ignore me...



i'm on my own now.

From now and then

Sigh, I don't know what to do. I finished tuition and I'm just here blogging for a while before I continue with my work. I had a very bad sleep. When I say bad, I mean REALLY BAD. I had two nightmares straight. Two and they weren't even pretty.

It was nonetheless, horrible.

I got up in the middle of the night, crying, whining, and my head throbbing. 

Sigh.

So much for, resting.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

That time of the month: Friend's Post 1

Now this is the time for the FRIEND'S POST! Well, I'm studying sejarah at the same time but I decided to blog before I continued studying.

This is my friend, Catherine Woo Mei Min a.k.a Mrs Kang Dae Sung

(purposely wan >D)

Well I actually have more of this (muahahah) but I'll leave it at this for now. Well, I actually knew her in 2006 but we got closer in 2007. We got closer during the Deeparaya Concert where she was dancing the chinese dance thingie while I was in the traditional malay dance. So yeah, there you go. We got closer like I said during 2007 and that was truly a blessing in disguise. She's really someone I could actually turn to and talk to her even at bad times. Well she gets a little too loud at times..but she's never judgmental. She's always there when you need her and gives you her soothing words of wisdom when you need help. Then I still remember, we joined talentime and laughed our asses off during my sleepover. I still remember her stuff dog..it was like..blue I think haha! 

I miss those times where we laughed and switch places so I ended up sleeping on bed and she on the floor. Then the next day I cooked breakfast for the two.

Well, then, we became really good friends even now. I still remember how we fangirled over Big Bang and that's when you set your eyes and fell in love with Dae Sung.

And now, he just proposed to you didn't he? In the most sweetest and epic way imaginable.

She's also Seladang's Loudspeaker and Fanclub captain. Seriously, don't mess. You wouldn't want to go around cursing Seladang or she'll just haunt you forever trust me. And then I still remember we had the HARDEST time thinking for our group name for talentime and we finally came up with it :)

Savage Rhapsody eh? I hope you kept our song though! :)

Hmm what else? Ah yes, Dae Sung. Her life revolves around Big Bang, Gaia, even weird things like the lion dance crank dat which was actually pretty cool.

 

I still remembered we were once called lesbians. Like wow. Because we HUGGED. I know, it's ridiculous but because she was having a hard time, I wanted her to feel better.

And look at us now :)

We're no lesbians, we're the bomb :D



And yes, cempaka voices. All those vocal exercises and weird times. I loved them so much and I am sure you do as well. I still can never forget how you still brought to your house by accident. Damn epic la. It was coincidental. It was like, muahaha. But it was fun. Your house's a legend.

I usually make nice posters for the pretty young lady and I can show you a few examples :)



The Lost Time by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

And take pictures~


Konayuki: Catherine by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

And make Dae Sung goodies for her





Dae Sung hot daymn by ~Narugasawa on deviantART



Autumn poster by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

But most of all, I cherish all the memories and moments that I shared with you. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Life's a long road but every road will intertwine and we'll meet again someday. Someday when we're older, we'll sit down and look back and laugh it all out.

Because we're friends for life.

And friends, forever.

Forever's a big word but it gives so much more meaning when you're with the friends you bond and grow up with. 

Thanks for the memories, my dear friend :)




the keepsake of my life :) 

The one who walked in and made a difference in my life
Who inspired me
Who I can turn to

and most of all

who I am glad to have as a friend 

Cat Woo <3

Monday, November 9, 2009

When there's good love.

I saw the memories falling apart.
I saw the light ended.

I saw nothing but darkness.

That's how depressed I am right now.

it's falling apart slowly.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

What's wrong?

I did not go through this day without a single tear until now. Can you imagine that? I am fairly tired but still surviving.

Still surviving.

I will change my layout. 

YES I will.

edit: Well I did. It looks happier now. Heh. I want us to be happy. The both of us to be happy. So, can we just forget about it?

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Only you can hear it

Who can know better than me
That your tenderness is like feathers?
Secret lying within my embrace
Only you can hear it
Is there still anyone who knows
That your smile is like a hug?
Really want to hide your goodness
Only I can see it
Standing on the rooftop only saying to the wind
Don't want to be pushed around
Originally hated the sky that rains
Until I hear someone say they love me
Sitting on the second floor of the cinema
Watching a crowd moving pass
How can the we of that day
Quietly smile for a very long time?

I think I am too dependent
In a moment ago hanging up the telephone
Persist in imitating a pure child
Quietly watching over this portion of love
Know I cannot be too dependent
Scared that you will spoil me
Your fragrance lingers all along
I cannot bear to leave


-Only you can hear my love calling out to you-