Someone's gotta go

I want you to know, that it doesn't matter, where we take this road, someone's gotta go and I want you to know you couldn't loved me better but I want you to move on, so I'm already gone. - Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone 

Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? - Green Day, 21 Guns

I actually can really feel you right here, but my heart's empty because you're not in there. - Emmaneul

"Stop looking at the beautiful things outside and come and listen to me." "But madam, I saw you." - Sam

"SUR-BI-BOR!" - Junsu

"Give me some JUICE!" "Er, sorry I'm out of them." "Damn it! Picked the wrong girl." Jason and Lindsay.

"But what about Nurain's?!" "Hello~ I am NURAIN." - YS & Nurain (this is damn funny.)

"Yeah and they'll probably lock Gabriel in a cage- I MEAN Gandalf." "HAHAHHA. Just like my mom." Andey & YS

DA Updates: Loveless Wonders

I am so proud of myself :')

Loveless Wonders by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

One of the best graphics I've done yet. Seriously, I was so inspired by yunyunsarang cause she is the AWESOMEST graphic designer ever. All hail yunyunsarang. After so long, from photography and now, I am able to produce this masterpiece. This is the inspiration I'm talking about.

Also, the yearbook layouts for Post PMR has been going so well lately! I really thank Bernadine and Silvian for the support and also, thank you so much Cat Woo for coming over and helping me out.

You see, ever since trials and forever, my mood for photography and designing died down tremendously. But now, it's back! And it will die down again. But I guess what Tara said was really, really inspiring :')

If you really love something that you love doing, then you will eventually make time for it.

I still remember I was a little girl, back when I was 12 or 11. My sister introduced me to photoshop. At first I started out HORRIBLE. Yeah, I still remember I used Paint and all sort of shit to photoshop. Then I remember, I never gave up. And I had my own photoshop then. So I experimented and made my first two WALLPAPERS! It was Bleach wallpapers by the way. I don't know whether I still have it but I don't think I have them anymore. But it was really bad anyway. So I started making some more wallpapers and icons and banners and I settled with my first ever wallpaper published out on deviantart which is this:

Prince of Tennis! Echizen Ryoma. Yeah, I know, it looked really bad. Hahah. But I tried.

A Wallpaper I made by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

DON'T LAUGH. HAHAH. It was BAD. But that time, it was really cool for me. Hahah! But it was BAD.

Oh well, time has changed me alot. I am alot better now but still need more work! Mada mada DANE! Lol, I still miss Prince of Tennis.

Okay, time to go! Beddddd :)

-ys

My list of ideas

Things I won't do when I'm studying alone overseas

1) Whine or make myself feel miserable about missing home. I will miss home but I don't have to show it.

2) Get a tattoo. Not cool.

3) Smoke. That is not cool at all, seriously.

4) Do drugs. Big no no.

5) Sleepover people's house unless needed. Especially if it's a guy.

6) Stay at home and just study all day. Come on! Need to explore.

7) Overspending. Very dangerous.

8) Don't max out my credit cards.

9) Drive. Rather use public transportation.

(will be updated)

Things I will try out when studying overseas.

1) Clubbing. Need some fun yo.

2) Going for awesome expeditions or trips.

3) Buy more clothes for myself.

4) Get a job over there for internship. (sp)

5) Mix around with awesome people.

6) Travel alone. YES! (A MUST)

7) Surfingggg! Pretty please?

(will be updated.)

Similarities much?

Recently I posted a fanfic few weeks ago and it was about male pregnancy. Yes, I know it is weird for most of you readers here but then I received a message from another author saying that her fanfic was very similar to my story. 

This was what she said.

Hello, this is GreyInnocence. 
We discovered your fic a few days ago and thought it was awfully similar to our fic, "The Mpreg Drabbles." We asked a few other people their opinions on the matter, and they agree that your fic bears an uncanny resemblance to ours. The fact that it is so similar and was posted just a few weeks after ours makes us think you got the idea from us. We don't mind you using the idea, but in the world of fanfiction authors and authoresses it is common courtesy to say "Hey, this was inspired by so-and-so" in your author's note. If you did get the idea from us we would be obliged if you put something in your author's notes about it. 
Thank you!
-Katie and Scarlet

I'm going to be frank with this. First, I have never read her fanfic before. I didn't even know she was a using an idea like that. Now let's be general and open. My fanfic was inspired by a friend who loves shonenai as much as I do. I even admitted to the entire anime club that I really love shonenai and one day, we were talking about male couples when we stumbled upon mpreg because there was once she told she read a fanfic in winglin about male pregnancy.

I am not making this matter big, because I actually learn something from this and I hope the authors understand.

First, there is such thing as coincidences. I really didn't know they had a fanfic like that and I have never read it. It was only YESTERDAY, I read it and believe it or not, there wasn't much of a similarity between the fanfics only except for the some. It wasn't like I copy and pasted their ideas into my fanfic mind you, I have my own ideas too. I am not dependent on your style of writing so beat that.

I discussed with my friends and even showed them their fanfic and mine. She said, there wasn't much of a resemblance aside from the general idea they were using. Even I read it many times and I only spot a few which doesn't mean they have the right to actually accuse me for somehow taking their idea and not crediting their work. Yes, if I was really inspired by a fanfic I would I would credit them just like my deviantart where I credit the artist for their inspiration. 

Ideas are meant to be shared like you said, but you really are making a big fuss out of it aren't you? So, I have explained it clearly and you aren't replying me which means you don't have anything to say do you?

There was also another email from, this reader, Katie (who I believe is the author of that fanfic) and the way you said it really pushed my buttons. I am not immature who finds excuses by saying is a coincidence. Because let me tell this to your face, IT IS THE TRUTH. It was a coincidence. 

Well then, I am SORRY if I stepped on your pudgy ass or STOLE your content and ideas but seriously, because I have learnt my lesson before. And now, I will continue to post the story and let there be no more said.

DA Updates: Taylor Swift

My comeback :)

Taylor Swift by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Well I'm too lazy to explain the process but credits to yunyunsarang for the awesome textures and yes, the brushes were created by me.

I know sucky quality picture but I tried.

Filtering was done by me. 

Everything was done by me obviously. And thank you yunyunsarang and ryuusei illusion for the inspiration. It feels great to be back photoshopping.

-narugasawa@deviantart.com- you know you want to touch it.

Voice Acting is so epic

This is so epic. Haha.

Get kicking

I am proud to say this.

I got my spirit up by studying again. Yes, studying again. Sounds really ridiculous? But I realised if I do consistent studying, it might actually work so I won't feel much of the stress when the real day comes. Meh, should HAVE done it a long time ago with my other subjects other than Sejarah but screw you.

Tomorrow, is Nazmin's open house.

And I can't wait :)

Muahaha.

I watched Uncharted: Drake's Fortune. MAN. THAT GAME, IS JUST AS EPIC AS TOMB RAIDER but Nate's not THAT hot but he's got arms of Jesus. Omg, seriously. He scaled the freaking FORTRESS. 

I need to work on piano. BAH. My skills are deteriorating :( It's badddd. I can't play Yiruma's Our Same Word anymore and it's a really nice song if it wasn't so choppy like mine!

*weeps*

Alright, gotta go cook some rice. (a.k.a studying)

ps: our same word ;) get it?

A new start?

After the Accounts paper, I couldn't help but think and weep in pain. Wah so dramatic. But really. I actually called my teacher right after school to apologized for not doing so well in her paper. I believed she sounded quite upset. After all that hard work she pulled off and after all that exercises I did, I worked for it but the paper was hopeless. 

I could do the questions but what really saddened me was that, I made so many mistakes because I panicked and was hoping I could pull it off but I didn't.

That really saddened me deeply.

So right now, my trials are over now.

SPM is on its way and I think I should do something about it. Yes, my trials results won't be as satisfying but what's more important is to focus on other papers. SPM especially. I won't weep and say it's too late but even if it is, I will keep the flow going.

This is my resolution.

of change.

All the best to the SPM candidates! My friends and yeah everybody.

It's just a few more weeks to SPM.

This time, let's make the best out of it!

Birthday post

First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUBI :)

Stay nice, perasan, sweet and AWESHUM :)

but of course, you can't be awesome without meeee :)

hope you read this nyahh!

TRIALS OVERRR! WHEEE.

why blue, cause not pink! 

Crack that history

Well, I have nothing to much to say. I am somehow calm. And I am kind of revising now so I will leave this alone.

Trials next week.

Good luck fifth formers :)

till then - ;)

Today is my official death date

Don't be surprised if you see this on the headlines.

17 YEAR OLD, GIRL, DIED YESTERDAY. LAST SEEN, HOLDING AN ACCOUNTS LEDGER BOOK.

yes that's how horrible Accounts was today.

On a friendlier note, I finished my homework so I am proud. Feel my pain too, Andrea. Aside from that, I am really tired now but I still want to revise a bit more. Crap, I have Maths too. Shit, this is horror. 

Man, I have English tomorrow as well. Crap.

ps: i am still feeling very bad. meh, i sometimes really hate you for some tight reason but at the same time, i can't.

I am celebrating once more!

That my Facebook usage has decreased tremendously. Yes no more Facebook for me people :) Of course, I used all of that time for studying and I am very please with that. Yes shoot me people because I'm awesome that way.

Lately I think whenever I take a shower, the temperature doesn't really affect me anymore, I mean like especially when it's really hot. Well that's because I always stay in my air conditioned which blasts off bizarre coldness. So everytime I need to shower, I turn the temperature to a level where honestly, you wouldn't want to shower in that kind of situation.

So I have to warm my body up to an extent, when I come out from the shower, my skin will steaming. Crazy no?

Today was boring. Felt nothing like school. Accounts was boring, like really boring. 

Doing Accounts now and Math. Meh, this is really boring.