What would you say pal?

I just finished packing for NS. Sigh, and I gotta fill in the freaking application forms later. What a way to spent New Year's :D

So my resolutions ah?

Well here goes nothing. In no particular order:

• To get through NS and return in one piece.
• Do absolutely well in college.
• Strive harder and change work attitude which means, more hardworking.
• Be a nice person and not be evil (Like Dr. Doofen..blabla)
• Lose weight! >( such a main priority
• Try to save some money- for future savings
• Improve in all my designs
• Have a really good and strong character. Try not to be sensitive I guess?
• Meet G-dragon and hang out with him (though this will not happen but a girl can dream)
• SLEEP WITH G-DRAGON (HAHAHA JOKINGGGG do not kill me rabid fangirls)

I have more actually but these are the main ones so far :)

I'm going to miss 2009. Omg, an hour's time and it's all over. 2009. And high school. Such a sad situation but it's not absurd. It's a good thing, that we're all moving on to greater heights.

LEAP! :D

Happy New Year's!

Again, we're closing another year and opening a new one. It makes me nostalgic really because 2009 was a good year. 

Perhaps in the past few months, I've lost and gain many things. My resolutions still remain the same and forever will remain the same. I am, somehow truly sorry to those I have angered and disappointed. 

It's time to let go and move on.

Sigh. So sad, it's ending. I'm not going to bore you with the whole sad, new year post and resolutions cause it's all going to be the same. May we all achieve the happiness and success that comes our way, seniors of 2009 :)

I am sure we will find our way and truly our way in college towards the road of our future. May God bless you all and may all your prayers be answered. There are so many things I really want to say now but it just can't be helped at times because it's best to enjoy what we have right now.

Just hours away from 2010.

can't believe it?

haha.

believe it.

I'm finally closing my last chapter. I'm opening a new chapter, a new story to my current life. Perhaps, my 3 months in National Service will teach me something about missing home, being strong, being independent, loyalty, love, friendship, hardship, consequences and so much more.

Perhaps I should take college as something new and great to look forward to.

we'll be worlds apart, but mine's just beginning.

I shall end, with.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Bangkok Day 1

Yes, I have decided to be a good girl and post the timeline of my vacation in Bangkok. And my pictures are up so it's a good thing I guess! I'm gonna skip the whole morning and packing process because the packing process was so tedious, I could really feel the nerves in my veins popping out. Nevertheless, we made it through.

Before we left

We sat on Thai Airlines which was pretty damn cool because there's a tv in front which means more watching movies :D But sadly, my damn tv didn't work so I had to settle for Melissa Hill. For an hour and 45 minutes, I was reading Melissa Hill *pouts*

But nevertheless, it made me happier again when I received nice purple complementary flowers from the cabin crew which was so nice. I happily clipped it on my bag because it looks so nice.

We arrived at Bangkok around 3 and we took the bus and headed straight for Pattaya! We were cruising on the bus and it's amazing how Bangkok is so huge hahah. Well after hours and hours of sleeping, we arrived at Pattaya :S The beach was so nice and and and wide. But sadly there were so many people crowding that it kindda lost the taste of beach. Meh, seems so funny eh? We stayed at a boutique hotel called Dusit. The hotel's really classy and small but it was so modern, the design I mean that I just can't help looking at it.

They even give you free complementary drinks!

And apparently XING (yep, I hope you guys still remember them) used to stay there!

And the rooms, were AMAZING. LORD. I LOVE THE BATHROOM I WANT MY TOILET AND BATHROOM TO BE LIKE THAT SERIOUSLY. I WANT I WANT I WANT. Nyeh, 

And soon we left the hotel and went up to the Pattaya peak point where we could see the whole city of Pattaya from above :) and we were greeted with a beautiful tinge of sunset.

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ps: i'll edit this later.

The latter has returned!

Yes, well I have returned from Bangkok and well, I know all of you miss me (the feeling's growing again) but then again, it's 12.51 am here and I terribly miss Bangkok. Will post more about this soon. I think today, I'm gonna try and go to One Academy again and see what I can do. Hopefully, can enroll straight away. Sigh, will only be taking the April intake because sadly, NS awaits me.

Anyways, throughout the Bangkok trip. It was a blast thought Christmas wasn't spent the way I wanted it to be nonetheless, it was a good trip. Aside from that, I have such great company with me.

My family, myself and my books.

Yes, I brought books along to read. I brought Melissa Hill's Wishful Thinking which was a good read and currently reading Lipstick Jungle by Candace Bushnell (keep thinking Bunshell) 

Oh well.

Gotta go sleep soon actually. Haahha. I'll blog more tomorrow.

Jack Sparrow Render :D

3 days of rendering and waiting and waiting, I finally finished it todayyy :D

I am a happy person :)

ps: nah andey! sorrry, file too big and excuse the bad camera angle cause the paper couldn't fit my scannerrrrrrrrrrrr :(

More on that bit

Just got back from Prom. Details will be updated later but for now, let's get on to better things:

Answer the questions using this: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi 

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
The Yeong Shin Goes Straight to Your Head

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Plop, Plop, Fizz, Fizz, Oh, What a Yeong Shin it is!

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Built Yeong Shin Tough

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Moving at the speed of Yeong Shin

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
The Yeong Shin of your life

6. To someone you dislike?
Have a break. Have a Yeong Shin

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Smart. Beautiful. Yeong Shin

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Everything we do is Driven by Yeong Shin

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
A Yeong Shin works wonders

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
The Lion Goes from Yeong Shin to Yeong Shin

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Yeong Shin with the Hole

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
Why Have Cotton When You Can Have Yeong Shin?

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Snap Into A Slim Yeong Shin

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Yeong Shin Makes Everything Better

15. Your last words before you die...
Your Flexible Yeong Shin

16. Your message to a special someone..
The Best Yeong Shin Under One Roof

17. Title of this post will be...
The Coolest Yeong Shin On Ice

Muahaha, so farnay :D

This has been a while :)

Tags! Well I found the tag anyways so why not?

1. Name : Yeong Shin
2. Birthday : 25 March (remember that)
3. Who tagged you : I found it?
4. Name 5 of your best friends : I have a lot
5. What do you want for your bday present : I want a sunflower field. Get me one and I'll worship you.
6. Happiest thing you have gone through recently : A lot?
7. Recent pressure : Posterssss! And renderingsss! :(
8. Ambition : Graphic Designer; hopefully.
9. Do you have a lover : Maybe :)
10. Will you look for your teachers during an alumni association : Of course!
11. Who makes you happy during an outing : Depends :)
12. If 2 of your friends are arguing : I'll leave them be until they come up to me
13. Where do you want to go with your lover : Somewhere only we know
14. What do you want to do during Christmas : Singggg! And design?
15. Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Everyone I love :)
16. Do you have the excitement of waking up? : Not really
17. How many siblings do you have : 4 sisters, yes a very big family
18. Which song u like the most (female) : Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson
19. Which song u like the most (male) : Broken by Lifehouse (male band okay!)
20. What colour do you like : Blue
21. Will you flush before use the toilet : if it's dirty, yes
22. Do you love me : Who?
23. Do you like male or female : Can't we have bisexual?
24. Shout out loud : YAIIII.
25. Dare to go for a pee at midnight : Obviously? Unless..well yeah
26. Will you take off ur pants when you're peeing? : BBQ.
27. Who are supposed to be whacked? : Hmmm :)
28. What are you crazy of recently : Many things actually :O
29. How is your sleeping look : Like a hippo
30. What time is it : 2.18 pm
31. Do you dislike the person who got you tagged : I dislike me?
32. Your weight : Now, I don't want to.
33. Weather : HOT.
34. Are you pregnant : Heck no
35. What will you do if you've won a lottery : Shop, and save up man.
36. An activity of the undergraduate students : Sleep.
37. Add a colour into rainbow : Gold
38. Do you think friendship is true-hearted : Hmm..
39. Do you know spring : I know autumn
40. Who do you like in TVXQ : Yoo Chun 
41. List out 5 of your flaws : FAT, Shop too much?, Read too much, Sleep too much and Game too much.
42. List out 2 sentences you like : You're like a marshmallow growing, SOUP! 
43. What do you like to eat : food?
44. You pray to god for : Many things
45. Brands you prefer : ALOT LA.

Views on such tales

Lalala, it's that time of the year *grumbles*

I can't sleep for some reason (grumbles again) Hmm, I'll just post some random pictures which I love :)

Gahahah! Baby chibi Squall! Hmm alot of people have been asking me who's my favourite Final Fantasy Character. Hmm, I shall explain now since I can't sleep and because I'm a very happy person (well kind of)

My all time favourite to me is Squall Leonhart. Cause he's so broodingly handsome. So what if there's a scar? Screw you bitches. Compared to the Tidus, he's much more mature and I guess he has this charm that attracts almost everyone else. 

Eeeee why must you be so charming :)

My second one is actually Noctis. Though this doesn't stay very long considering it might change since I haven't played the game but Noctis is a very different character in terms of his dark side personality and bad ass hair. Other than that, he's really good looking.

Noctis also called Noct, despite the weird name.

For now :) Eh, so brooding and handsome :)

A Night at Shanghai

So a proper post, Aaron's party was amazing. So what did we do? How did it go? What was the theme and everything? Well that will be self explained sooner. After getting me cheong sam, I put on my heels and was off for the party. The place was quite near my place so I didn't have a problem getting there but the problem was finding the ballroom. But well Natalie, Sheung Fang, Siew Hwei and I eventually found it.

Everyone was dressed at their best with suxh exquisite taste of cheong sam. Everyone looked lovely! I was beginning to think that this party was really heating up with such an interesting theme. It was nice once in a while to wear something so pretty instead of the boring prom dresses routine all the time.

But it was really lovely. 

Everyone had their share of fun. We folded origamis, played games, had so much fun laughing and the best of all, we get to dance.

I haven't had so much fun dancing in my entire life. One day, we shall go clubbing okay? Lol but then again, I had nothing much to say. Because the night itself explains it. It was amazing.

Thank you Aaron for inviting me :)

It's so epic

I have good news and well it's not entirely GOOD but well it satisfies me. I am about to finish Tomb Raider Underworld! Yes, I know, after like weeks of disregarding it, it's about to finish. Well, not yet. I still have to go through one more sub mission which is so hard and epic but it's going to be fun as hell. 

Aside from that, my sister returned from England got me, well.. a Marc Jacobs keychain but it's okay I guess. Hmm what else?

Oh yeah, I actually finally got the time to cut my hair :O Well my mother wanted it short so well, I went with her to Bangsar Village II to get my haircut and it turned out like this:

Sigh I know it's short okay! But at least I still can tie my hair. And excuse the retarded face, I look better like that apparently :O

And I bought myself another book and read it in one day :) It's Mitch Albom's Have a little faith. I'll be doing a book review on it tomorrow since I'm really tired today and tomorrow, I'm going to One U to collect my prom outfit. Muahah, life's good when you have chocolate.

Anyhoo, I can't wait for Art as well. Hmm, yeah.

I miss Andrea. She's been MIA-ing. Or maybe..I just can't contact her enough. Ah well, I'll see her soon hopefully. I hope so.

What really matters?

People are very materialistic to say. Women especially. At times, I feel like that too. I always wanted so much more than what I have. I always dared myself to wear clothes I can't even fit. I always make myself believe that I am slimmer but when actually I am not all that slim.

So today, I went looking for my prom dress and my mother found a decent one for me. It looked so plain because it was just all black.

But the moment I wore it.

It looked very decent. Even if it's such a dull, plain and meaningless colour, it looked decent on me, decent enough for my mother to say, "You look good."

When I got home, after reading a book I have bought today, I realised something. True enough I am not as slim as before. Not as fit as before. Not scientifically proven beautiful like Lee Hyori but it made me realise that..

"Why should you be like others? We are all different in many ways. God gave us a body and we taunt it. But even all that, we should make the best out of it. Even if all clothes do not fit us, we should find the right one just for us, but always remember, you make the dress beautiful not the dress make you beautiful. Also, you should be thankful that you're given a body to begin with."

I thank God for blessing my family with love and I will always be grateful for the things that you've done for my family. 

Now and always.

Tomb Raider: Underworld

I've been playing the shit out of this:

Tomb Raider has been one of my favourite adventure games ever since I was like 12? My uncle loves Tomb Raider as well and always play the shit out of it. So I did. I played Tomb Raider II and Tomb Raider III. This is actually my third Tomb Raider game I'm playing. I'm actually trying to get Tomb Raider: Legend and Tomb Raider: Anniversary but we'll see about that. 

TR: Underworld is much more, harder than the ones I played earlier but it's not so bad either. The puzzles in this game are pretty ridiculous because well, they are but it's a hell load of fun. You will see Lara encountering with traps, monsters, weird people, climb fortresses, swim, climb rocks, riding motorcycle, making epic moments and going on so many dangerous trips. But that's why she's Lara Croft, our Tomb Raider.

Underworld is much more darker than the previous games where it actually follows up from Tomb Raider: Legend which I am yet to play. Aside from that, I haven't entirely run through this game but I am about to finish it tonight, hopefully or if not, I'll continue in the morning. But this game is epic as hell. I love it so much that it gives me headache. One thing I hate about this game is the ugly camera angles which half of the time, when I turn the angles, either I'll be seeing her gigantic breasts, butt, hair, hair tie or her eyelashes.

And this is my first playthrough so Lara dies alot. Like..ALOT.

Her gymnastic skills were displayed tremendously displayed in the game like the beams and the parallel bars. Well, to me at least cause I haven't played the previous installments but I would love to. I am excited cause I really want to finish the game as soon as possible so that I can unlock more awesome stuffs that I've never seen.

Oh well, if you're interested in tomb raiding, I suggest you get this game as well :)

My History of Shoes

Well, yes as you all know, I don't shop that much though I say I want to shop but in the end, I'll end up buying books or food. For today, I will reveal to you my shoe collection! You may think it's going to be like a quadruple  post of it but no, even one post can fit the description of all these shoes. Why? Well one thing is because, I'm just going to do the heels and wedges section. And believe me, I think two posts is like enough to cover my whole section of shoe collection because it's THAT little.

I present you my first pair of heels:

Colour: White, yes it used to be white

Brand: Sakura

Year: 2005

My very first pair which I wore for formal functions. They look so old now. It's 4 years old already and yes I still keep it cause it's so comfortable to wear :)

My second pair:

Colour: Well, you can tell can you? Silver

Brand: Vincci

Year: 2008

Well, because my mother said I should get something formal for like formal parties or something like that. But it's so old now. Sigh, I've been using it for a year already. I got this last year I think.

My third pair:

Colour: Black

Brand: Charles and Keith

Year: 2009

Yes I got this baby only around this year and it's my most prized possession. Cause it's my first time wearing heels THIS HIGH. Well yeah. Anyways, I got used to it already since it's so sexy. Haha, should wear this more often. 

My fourth pair:

Colour: Light blue/Fusion of blues

Brand: E-kiss from Korea

Year: 2009

I found this at the Curve cause it was on sale! And it was sooo cute and I loved it so much. I love korean products :) They make me a very happy person like always. Either way, it's really, really cute.

My fifth pair:

Colour: Purple, Pink, Blue (yes it's all fused together)

Brand: Nichii

Year: 2009

I went shopping for this yesterday and it's soo nice omgoodness. I love it so much cause it's well tall and it makes me look tall as well. I love this because the straps are so nice. It's a really nice touch. I love. 

And my last pair:

Colour: Black denim

Brand: Neo

Year: 2009

Got this from yesterday too. I love this shoe the best. It's from Hong Kong and the denim material is so nice. And it's a pretty reasonable pricing because well, considering it's so sexy, I love :) And it's incredibly high. 

Yes that's all I have. Six pairs of heels and I think that's already..like 3/4 of my shoe collection. My shoe collection NEVER reached a tenth rating. You see if you're wondering why I have such little shoes, that's because I never liked shopping. Let alone, heels aren't my kind of thing but now, I'm getting used to it. Takes practice man. Mostly, my shoes are actually hand me downs thanks to my sisters who don't wear them occasionally so I wear them. That's why it makes it look like I have LOADS OF SHOES. But no, these are the only ones I have. Pretty ridiculous huh? But it's more than enough. I don't want to flood my room with shoes okay :( 

I would like to post pictures of the heels of those shoes but nah, I'm just too lazy.

On a side note, I got two more posts coming up for book reviews and my overall day.

2012

I watched this today:

It was not as amazing as I thought but it will definitely bring something. This movie is so epic. I am not joking, it's so epic, I thought it was funny. If it inspires you, I salute you. Well it did so I salute it. But overall, I'm really too lazy to explain the story plot. So I'm just going to say.

Nothing lasts forever, not even Earth itself. Though we cannot control the forces of nature but at least, appreciate and enjoy what we really have now? Earth is our mother. And we are Her children. Love what we have before it's gone. But remember, Earth itself is healing on her own. To help her heal, stop everything. Stop and stare and witness as a miracle sparks into the skies.

And we see, hope again. 

I rate it 7.5/10. It's just so epic la. 

Anyways, I was out with my new shopping buddy. Yes I have a new shopping buddy haha! So we went to Borders to get The Time Traveler's Wife book. Then we went to the gamer's stall where I bought seven games in total. Afterwards, we went to the movies to watch 2012. After 2012, with one hour to kill, we went walking around. I went to Nichii after so long not returning to Nichii to look around and I saw some very nice wedges with a reasonable price. After much pondering, I bought them (yes I think about these things very thoroughly, I'm that weird). Next, we went walking around and we stopped by a few shops to try on some shoes.

I was looking for some gladiators and finally, found one. And it was cheap so don't judge me. I'm that concerned about my money. So with the remaining money, I went looking around and shopping buddy bought me a necklace. A very cute one I must say. And it's cheap as well.

So we went walking around until we stumbled upon this shoe shop, with the nicest pairs of denim heels ever. I was practically drooling at it. The price was actually MUCH reasonable enough. But enough to make the both of us to empty our pockets. 

After all that fuss, we sat down for a while until my mother, called and said it was time to go. Well we parted ways after that. In total I bought:

• A book
• Seven PS2 games
• 3 Shoes
• A neckalce

Trust me, enough to make you go wild ;)

I am never shopping after this anymore. This was actually a first, I mean, shopping on my own but of course with the help of my new shopping buddy.

Awesome day? Hell yeah!

Does your heart beat faster?

I'm actually barely awake now but I'm still up for some reason.

Why do I only see the lightest colour?

I admit I haven't been blogging as well as I thought but that's going to change. The fact that I have all the time in world, I will try and update a little bit of here and there before this year ends. 

I have only a few more weeks to spend before I leave for the National Service and no, I am not going to explain what is it because it's too cheap for that. And yes, the picture above was taken by me. It's not a stock picture. Let's see, today, I don't know what to do.

The problem after SPM?

Your head's gonna be blank for a bit.

Yes and it's true. I think I should go take a walk. Sigh, such interesting moments. I would like to go out really but I'm too lazy for that. But maybe I should read some books? I don't know.

On a lighter note: My sister's coming back from England. I feel like changing the blog template because it feels too, wide. I think I should be doing something more productive. Well, actually I managed to finish watching Forrest Gump.

Hi my name's Forrest, Forrest Gump. 

It was a good movie, I almost teared and it's just so god damn funny. Life's a box of chocolates, you never know what you get. - Momma Gump :P

Run Forrest, RUN!

"How does it feel like being All-American?"

"I gotta pee."

"I'm not a smart man..but I know what love is."

"Ice cream!"

Haha, I love this movie :) Hmm, I need more movies to watch. I'll go on movie junkie mode today :D Thing is, I don't have a lot of movies to watch but well, I'll find some time to review the movies that I have watched.

How long do you want me to wait? 

Movies I definitely want to watch now.

Well there's more, to be updated :)

Oh really? It's done?

SPM is finally over. Well, at least for me. 

It's my last time, sitting for my high school exams.

No more late night studying for Sejarah.

No more raping my books.

No more struggling over Bahasa Melayu.

No more forcing my head to remember 1000 peribahasas.

No more waking up early to revise.

It's all over :)

And to celebrate that, I watched a movie today with my sister and it's..

I am darn lazy to explain the story plot but we all know Mr. Scrooge now do we? 

Thing is, I never actually imagined any Disney Movies to be as dark as this. It actually scared me a little bit because of the sound effects which was awesome and the ever surprising  scares. It was definitely something different. And it was alright. I rate it 7/10. Well because, I still love Jim Carrey.

I love Charles Dickens' books. Especially this one and I must say Disney pulled it off easily. 

Movies I want to watch next? 

1) 2012

2) Ninja Assasin

3) Love Happens

Yes, please? :)

Mindless brains

credits to camiloo :)

I see a lollipop. Hmm, that's interesting because I love lollipops :) well aside from that. You see, it may seem like a happy picture but well that's not the point. No it's not a happy post actually but I love lollipops you see so there we go.

If you really have the time to take a look back, there were so many things I could have accomplished in my life. It's just that time of the year where after your last exam paper and last final paper of high school you tend to sit back and think. 

What are we going to do for the rest of our lives?

I have always been inspired by my friends. Many friends. I could have been so much more than just an average girl. The reason why I joined so many sports, choirs, musicals and expeditions. It was just so that I could gain my interest in them. I studied extra hard so that I could gain my excellent results and what not. I'm a singer but I'm in the choir, I'm not a dancer but I joined cheerleading. I'm not an athletic person but I joined so many sports just so I could gain recognition from others, to make my own name.

But how is it that, some people don't have to do anything at all but they are just so, well known straight away?

I wish I could be someone else. That was what I always say. 

I wish I was more sporting, more loving, more musical, more defined with what I have now.

But, I take that all back.

Why should I be all that? When I can just be myself alone? Why should I force myself into joining sports I don't love and singing when I am just not as good as the others? Surely enough I love singing, but not as a career. I love dancing, but as a hobby, not as a career. I love sports but not as a career.

I love piano, but never in my life I would take it as my profession. Guitar is my interest but I am not musically inclined. I am not tone deaf but my interest is just not in there. My heart belongs to the artistic world yes, because I love art. I love drawing even if people seem to hate it so much. Even if people seem to stress about it so much but I never ever felt stressed about art (except for the folio yes). I love graphic designing. I am not good like the many others but I love it because I want people to know my work, comment, critic and I would like to share my own piece to the whole world.

Like how Andrea Bocelli shared his voice and songs to the whole world. Like how Mother Theresa shared her peace and joy to the world. Like how Earth shared its life to us all.

I want people to be inspired by my works. I want people to look at my works and comment. Even if they're bad or good, I still appreciate my work. 

People keep asking me, "Hey, you're doing a-levels?"

No, I am not for the final time and never would I ever do A-levels. I am still thinking about my foundation but no, not a-levels. I am yet to look for colleges but I shall leave that for later. I am enjoying my art classes and hope to take them until I leave for college. 

This year has been great for me. Through this, I realised what I really loved and what I don't really loved or have interest in it. I realised how I deeply understand myself even more with the help of my friends and understand the meaning of enjoying the best moments of life even if it fails you.

Because I am happy being me.

I can change for the better but I don't wanna be someone else. I want to be me. Average but awesome. I am happy for the talent that I am given, happy for the things I loved doing most and most of all, happy that I am living in this life with no regrets.

A phrase that will haunt you for life is, "If I just could..." or.."If I have.."

live the life you love, love the life you live.

you're only 17 once, live it. 

Fun Quotes :)

"Alright! It's two on two baby! I take the breasts you take the- screw it."

-vash

so epic :)

I wake up and find that you're not here

Because there's love, there's hope.

Give them a chance to grow.

They're our lives too.

Our lives.

Because it's who we are

Even the sharpest thorns, can't pierce through this broken heart;

Apologizing;

does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right.

it just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

And you call yourself a woman?

So..

Just two more days and that's the end of high school life? *gasp in horror* Today after my papers, I sketched my art piece and I think it looks good. Hopefully I won't mess it up with the colour. Aside from that, I am annoyed.

Really annoyed.

Having to wait here until the download finishes? It's very annoying no kidding.

Hmm, I opened a new blog for a new start right?

I don't understand the world now. Is it me or are we going back in time to the days where men and women don't even know how their blood taste like? Do you really need to go to the extent of writing such a ludicrous note to your celebrity in that kind of form? What benefit do you get from this?

Fame? Attention?

Sure you got all that. 

Seriously. You actually would give up anything of you just to tell him you love him? If that's love for you, I'm so sorry, your love ain't my kind of love. 

If you don't know what I'm talking about, just ignore it. Unless you read allkpop, then you'll know.

And you call yourself a girl?

Fine a little mean there but seriously, would you do it if you actually had the chance?

What a day?

Okay, I've been revising accounts for the past few days and my head is really getting the symptoms. Too much Accounts.

Aside from that, I don't know what I'll be drawing for Art because I can't seem to find my paper anywhere but but but, I do roughly know the questions.

And the most obvious one is the watermelon house, which I highly doubt I want to draw it. Because it looks really, well annoying?

But I might consider the fish tank one cause it's cool and I wanna try :)

Now, I want to try using tumblr because I want to have a proper blog so that I can rant about ANYTHING interesting and also, blogger is a little too bleh for me. So I am going to try out tumblr. For the time being.

New Moooooo-N

Yes yesterday night, I went to watch New Moon with MooWoo, MJ and Janice. Well, I might wanna brag a bit here and there but oh well, yeah. I'm just gonna say it.

Wait, of course let me put some posters up so that you'll know what I'm talking about.

Over all?

I like it better than Twilight. But the slow moving pace scenes are really annoying and disturbing. Sure it has more humour to it but it could have been done better. So much better. The thing is, they should really change the actors and actresses. Ashley Greene is fine cause she portrays Alice just like how Alice should be. But Bella? Goodness. I don't mean to say she's BAD but Kristen really can't pull it off. Yes, Bella is annoying in the book but looking at Kristen acting out as her, oh my goodness. And Robert Pattinson (Pattison whatever), he has the most disturbing effect of a vampire. The moment he took off his shirt, my eyes just could just drop out from my sockets. Yes, it was that EYESORE. Where as Jacob played by Taylor Lautner, wasn't that bad either. He had the abs, buff daddy look but I don't know, he's a little lack of something as well.

Overall, I didn't like this book either but hopefully they pull of Eclipse better because the last few parts of Eclipse is the one that's gonna bring out the challenge. 

And this movie?

I rate it 3.5/5. I rated Twilight 2 because it was THAT BAD. And that book was my favourite book of all and I rated it 2 for the movie.

And the ending of New Moon? Abrupt, Absurd, Ludicrous.

Match it up? Yes.

And even better, I wish they didn't have to make a movie out of Twilight. I mean not because I hate the book or anything but it's so hard to just imagine the Godly Edward Cullen that Stephenie Meyer described to be portrayed by HIM. 

But all in all, I'll still keep watching. 

Till well, it gets better and better. 

I quote from Stephen King.

"The real difference [between J.K. Rowling and Meyer] is that JK Rowling is a terrific writer, and Stephenie Meyer can't write worth a darn. She's not very good." However, King understood the appeal of the series, adding, "People are attracted by the stories, by the pace and in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it's very clear that she's writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books. It's exciting and it's thrilling and it's not particularly threatening because it's not overly sexual."

Materialistic matters

So you see, just now. I was out with my mum and my younger sister for a shopping spree at my mum's stack of heaven. I was there, with the store attendants asking me try out EVERY FREAKING SHIRT/LEGGINGS/TIGHTS/SHORTS/PANTS they could reach. 

And with that, I was of course annoyed but finally out of the thousands of pile, I only bought one top. I know so pathetic. 

Now this is the best bit.

You see, I never had a handbag of my own cause I've been using my sister's/mum's hand me downs. Second hand. So I was looking through some handbags and then my mum showed me this, purple 'PRADA' bag which was really, really nice! The cutting was really nice for some reason I liked it. So my mum said, just go get it.

Yeah. So my first happiness.

Second, there was this white watch that was so pretty. It was slick and sexy. So I told my mum this is nice. So well I got it.

And now, the best part.

The bag cost me my LIFE. It was THAT EXPENSIVE. And needless to say about the watch? In total for those bloody things, I spent 1000+ over. My heart sank.

If I knew, it was THAT expensive, I wouldn't buy it (call me cheap but yes I am that particular about prices)

Throughout the entire journey I was very gloomy but well at least this taught me something.

"ALWAYS LOOK AT THE PRICE FIRST BEFORE BEING BLINDED BY IT'S GLAM."

Sigh such a painful lesson. There goes my savings.

And the moral of the story is?

Today, I sat for my final Pendidikan Moral exam. Yes it's the SPM one. Now I'm not gonna brag about how the paper was because to me, it's all the same. But while doing the paper and upon re-checking it, I thought about something. Something that needs to be done but somehow, people failed to realise this.

The point of learning Moral. That is the big question. Many people asked the ministry, "Why is Moral a compulsory subject?"

And they even dare, DARE to even explain about how the crime rates are going up and how moral needs to be exposed to children at a tender age. But honestly, did that really worked?

If really, MORAL was an inspiring subject, the crime rates would have dropped miraculously, leaving just the good people to die for. Does this mean we have to study all 36 moral values and burn them into our brain till we're old and grey? The only thing people remember from this exam paper is how bullshit it is. 

I am not insulting my country's education system but I'm actually questioning them about the education system they're revolving around. It is something we learn through experiences, life threatening moments, memories, exposure but not through books. Books, I believed are inspirations which you can learn from and it will last forever. Like Mitch Albom. He doesn't even need to list out 36 moral values and yet he made a big impact to readers who are just awed by his simple language but yet, beautiful sentence construction and choice of words.

But what about our Moral textbook? Moral values? We gruel them everyday, for almost two years and in the end, we get nothing. Why?

That's because, it's an examination.

An examination to test your moral values? I beg to differ. I can laugh my ass all the way to college saying, hey we have an exam for moral! And it's a compulsory one!

Aren't moral values something we learn through the little things in life that makes it so imperfect? Aren't moral values something that we do not need to know it's definition but know the depths of reaching out to people who need them? Aren't moral values the teachers instead of the books being the teachers and teaching us about moral values? Aren't moral values something that we cannot absorb and study hard for it but something that we have learn through the everyday things that we encounter?

Why do we even have to memorise so much and yet in the end, we don't apply these rules to the principles of life? Why is it that those who scored 17 A1's but apparently, failed entrance exams in high standards and means of college exams internationally? Why is that even high school drop outs are prancing into fame without even studying that much of their school life and yet they make it to the top?

Why is that you are choosing for us? Aren't we a democratic country? Can't we students, choose on how we live our education life instead of spoonfeeding us with bottles of information and all we just do is apply to our exams and forget them in the afterlives? 

Why can't we choose?

Are we your guinea pigs?

You're not the one who's going to college. You're not the one who's going to have their next career up in their line. You're not the one who's going to live our lives. Aren't we the future?

Do us, ALL OF US a favour.

Stop messing with our education and get it right. Do what's best for the country. Think before you even decide. Do what's best for the love of our Motherland. Make this country, Malaysia a better place for us to live in, even without the moral values that we need to memorise, we still can make a difference if we all work together. Stop being a bitch and start thinking of the future of our country.

And lastly.

stop messing around with the education system.

DA Updates: Going Green!

Going Green by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Nuff said. SAVE THE WORLD!

Totally, illustrated by me which explains the ugly transformation. ENJOY.

It's time?

Yeah, I just sat for three SPM papers. BM 1 & 2 and Sejarah.

My thoughts?

So far so good. It's alright. I am quite satisfied with Sejarah though. BM 1 yes but BM 2 a little shaky there but still good enough to call it OKAY.

:)

see you soon.

Sigh, how?

i need..

someone to talk to.

but i keep pushing people away.

sigh.

i want to die so badly.

but what will become of me?

if you're hearing this.

i'm sorry.

i am.

i want us to be happy but i'm just making it bad.

sigh.

what should i do?

i am lost.

talk to me please?

well..i'm pretty sure you'll ignore me...

i'm on my own now.

From now and then

Sigh, I don't know what to do. I finished tuition and I'm just here blogging for a while before I continue with my work. I had a very bad sleep. When I say bad, I mean REALLY BAD. I had two nightmares straight. Two and they weren't even pretty.

It was nonetheless, horrible.

I got up in the middle of the night, crying, whining, and my head throbbing. 

Sigh.

So much for, resting.

That time of the month: Friend's Post 1

Now this is the time for the FRIEND'S POST! Well, I'm studying sejarah at the same time but I decided to blog before I continued studying.

This is my friend, Catherine Woo Mei Min a.k.a Mrs Kang Dae Sung

(purposely wan >D)

Well I actually have more of this (muahahah) but I'll leave it at this for now. Well, I actually knew her in 2006 but we got closer in 2007. We got closer during the Deeparaya Concert where she was dancing the chinese dance thingie while I was in the traditional malay dance. So yeah, there you go. We got closer like I said during 2007 and that was truly a blessing in disguise. She's really someone I could actually turn to and talk to her even at bad times. Well she gets a little too loud at times..but she's never judgmental. She's always there when you need her and gives you her soothing words of wisdom when you need help. Then I still remember, we joined talentime and laughed our asses off during my sleepover. I still remember her stuff dog..it was like..blue I think haha! 

I miss those times where we laughed and switch places so I ended up sleeping on bed and she on the floor. Then the next day I cooked breakfast for the two.

Well, then, we became really good friends even now. I still remember how we fangirled over Big Bang and that's when you set your eyes and fell in love with Dae Sung.

And now, he just proposed to you didn't he? In the most sweetest and epic way imaginable.

She's also Seladang's Loudspeaker and Fanclub captain. Seriously, don't mess. You wouldn't want to go around cursing Seladang or she'll just haunt you forever trust me. And then I still remember we had the HARDEST time thinking for our group name for talentime and we finally came up with it :)

Savage Rhapsody eh? I hope you kept our song though! :)

Hmm what else? Ah yes, Dae Sung. Her life revolves around Big Bang, Gaia, even weird things like the lion dance crank dat which was actually pretty cool.

 

I still remembered we were once called lesbians. Like wow. Because we HUGGED. I know, it's ridiculous but because she was having a hard time, I wanted her to feel better.

And look at us now :)

We're no lesbians, we're the bomb :D

And yes, cempaka voices. All those vocal exercises and weird times. I loved them so much and I am sure you do as well. I still can never forget how you still brought to your house by accident. Damn epic la. It was coincidental. It was like, muahaha. But it was fun. Your house's a legend.

I usually make nice posters for the pretty young lady and I can show you a few examples :)

The Lost Time by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

And take pictures~

Konayuki: Catherine by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

And make Dae Sung goodies for her

New Year Present: Catherine by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Dae Sung hot daymn by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Autumn poster by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

But most of all, I cherish all the memories and moments that I shared with you. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Life's a long road but every road will intertwine and we'll meet again someday. Someday when we're older, we'll sit down and look back and laugh it all out.

Because we're friends for life.

And friends, forever.

Forever's a big word but it gives so much more meaning when you're with the friends you bond and grow up with. 

Thanks for the memories, my dear friend :)

the keepsake of my life :) 

The one who walked in and made a difference in my life

Who inspired me

Who I can turn to

and most of all

who I am glad to have as a friend 

Cat Woo <3

When there's good love.

I saw the memories falling apart.

I saw the light ended.

I saw nothing but darkness.

That's how depressed I am right now.

it's falling apart slowly.

What's wrong?

I did not go through this day without a single tear until now. Can you imagine that? I am fairly tired but still surviving.

Still surviving.

I will change my layout. 

YES I will.

edit: Well I did. It looks happier now. Heh. I want us to be happy. The both of us to be happy. So, can we just forget about it?

Only you can hear it

Who can know better than me
That your tenderness is like feathers?
Secret lying within my embrace
Only you can hear it
Is there still anyone who knows
That your smile is like a hug?
Really want to hide your goodness
Only I can see it
Standing on the rooftop only saying to the wind
Don't want to be pushed around
Originally hated the sky that rains
Until I hear someone say they love me
Sitting on the second floor of the cinema
Watching a crowd moving pass
How can the we of that day
Quietly smile for a very long time?

I think I am too dependent
In a moment ago hanging up the telephone
Persist in imitating a pure child
Quietly watching over this portion of love
Know I cannot be too dependent
Scared that you will spoil me
Your fragrance lingers all along
I cannot bear to leave

-Only you can hear my love calling out to you-

And to infinity

School.

Very boring.

Like OH MY GOD.

*sigh*

ps: I miss you :( come back fast. Sail back! :(

A dedication

My condolences to your family, Joanne. She's in a better place now and always remember, she still loves the both of you very much. Stay strong and never give up :)

Sincerely.

I have this fanfic

Coming but too much sejarah :(

DA Updates: The Teenage Witch

The teenage witch by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

More photography this time :)

Yes, this is Catherine Woo, my dearest friend. This was last year's shot so might as well put it in. I miss this. I want another HALLOWEEN! I miss Halloween. *whines*

So yes, I'll have more DA updates coming. I'm too lazy to post all in one.

Separate posts will be better yes? :)

Hahaha!

Someone's reading my blog (I think)

and it's Khongers~ xD

I miss him la. He's in Aussie land, doing what the Aussie people do. And yesh, get your butt back so that I can say hi to you :D

Errrr yeaaaah, I'm actually bored. I am doing my homework. Actually almost done.

buttttt, I'm bored :)

and yeah..

Hi pandaaaa :)

moohoo!

-banana cow flying off-

DA Updates: Friends & Snow

Like friends forever by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

The landscape of snow by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

My photographs! At last ;)

I'm happy with the outcome.

My last Sunday

Wah, so epic huh? Anyways today I learnt something so so so awesome during Art! I learnt how to use ILLUSTRATION MARKERS.

OMG, YES I KNOW AND I AM SO HAPPY BECAUSE I, DREW A MAN (THAT LOOKS LIKE RICHARD GERE) AND AND HE TURNED OUT SOOOO NICEEE. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS JUST THE FACE AND YESSS..

GO HERE

HTTP://JOHNHOYS.DEVIANTART.COM.

GO GO GO

He has the best works ever and yes the end product of my Richard Gere look alike will LOOK LIKE HIS.

MEEEEH. YES I AM HAPPY BECAUSE SEJARAH MAKES ME HAPPY AND SCIENCE TOO. SO I LOVE MATHS.

errr..

okay.

I LOVE MATHS :D

Time to nerd

My nerding started today.

And you know what?

IT FEELS GOOD TO BE A NERD :)

PS: I am proud to be a nerd :D

I can breathe & DA UPDATES!

I won't take a long time for this update. Just gonna update you with what's going on right now. Setara papers are the shit. And I love my current layout. G-dragon is the smex.

And yes, more DA updates!

Umm, yeah.


As this darkness by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

Anddddd..


I love typography by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

I personally like my layout the best :D

DA Updates: Already Gone

For andey tham :)

Deviantart is GAY :(

Already Gone

Someone's gotta go

I want you to know, that it doesn't matter, where we take this road, someone's gotta go and I want you to know you couldn't loved me better but I want you to move on, so I'm already gone. - Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone 

Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? - Green Day, 21 Guns

I actually can really feel you right here, but my heart's empty because you're not in there. - Emmaneul

"Stop looking at the beautiful things outside and come and listen to me." "But madam, I saw you." - Sam

"SUR-BI-BOR!" - Junsu

"Give me some JUICE!" "Er, sorry I'm out of them." "Damn it! Picked the wrong girl." Jason and Lindsay.

"But what about Nurain's?!" "Hello~ I am NURAIN." - YS & Nurain (this is damn funny.)

"Yeah and they'll probably lock Gabriel in a cage- I MEAN Gandalf." "HAHAHHA. Just like my mom." Andey & YS

DA Updates: Loveless Wonders

I am so proud of myself :')

Loveless Wonders by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

One of the best graphics I've done yet. Seriously, I was so inspired by yunyunsarang cause she is the AWESOMEST graphic designer ever. All hail yunyunsarang. After so long, from photography and now, I am able to produce this masterpiece. This is the inspiration I'm talking about.

Also, the yearbook layouts for Post PMR has been going so well lately! I really thank Bernadine and Silvian for the support and also, thank you so much Cat Woo for coming over and helping me out.

You see, ever since trials and forever, my mood for photography and designing died down tremendously. But now, it's back! And it will die down again. But I guess what Tara said was really, really inspiring :')

If you really love something that you love doing, then you will eventually make time for it.

I still remember I was a little girl, back when I was 12 or 11. My sister introduced me to photoshop. At first I started out HORRIBLE. Yeah, I still remember I used Paint and all sort of shit to photoshop. Then I remember, I never gave up. And I had my own photoshop then. So I experimented and made my first two WALLPAPERS! It was Bleach wallpapers by the way. I don't know whether I still have it but I don't think I have them anymore. But it was really bad anyway. So I started making some more wallpapers and icons and banners and I settled with my first ever wallpaper published out on deviantart which is this:

Prince of Tennis! Echizen Ryoma. Yeah, I know, it looked really bad. Hahah. But I tried.

A Wallpaper I made by ~Narugasawa on deviantART

DON'T LAUGH. HAHAH. It was BAD. But that time, it was really cool for me. Hahah! But it was BAD.

Oh well, time has changed me alot. I am alot better now but still need more work! Mada mada DANE! Lol, I still miss Prince of Tennis.

Okay, time to go! Beddddd :)

-ys

My list of ideas

Things I won't do when I'm studying alone overseas

1) Whine or make myself feel miserable about missing home. I will miss home but I don't have to show it.

2) Get a tattoo. Not cool.

3) Smoke. That is not cool at all, seriously.

4) Do drugs. Big no no.

5) Sleepover people's house unless needed. Especially if it's a guy.

6) Stay at home and just study all day. Come on! Need to explore.

7) Overspending. Very dangerous.

8) Don't max out my credit cards.

9) Drive. Rather use public transportation.

(will be updated)

Things I will try out when studying overseas.

1) Clubbing. Need some fun yo.

2) Going for awesome expeditions or trips.

3) Buy more clothes for myself.

4) Get a job over there for internship. (sp)

5) Mix around with awesome people.

6) Travel alone. YES! (A MUST)

7) Surfingggg! Pretty please?

(will be updated.)

Similarities much?

Recently I posted a fanfic few weeks ago and it was about male pregnancy. Yes, I know it is weird for most of you readers here but then I received a message from another author saying that her fanfic was very similar to my story. 

This was what she said.

Hello, this is GreyInnocence. 
We discovered your fic a few days ago and thought it was awfully similar to our fic, "The Mpreg Drabbles." We asked a few other people their opinions on the matter, and they agree that your fic bears an uncanny resemblance to ours. The fact that it is so similar and was posted just a few weeks after ours makes us think you got the idea from us. We don't mind you using the idea, but in the world of fanfiction authors and authoresses it is common courtesy to say "Hey, this was inspired by so-and-so" in your author's note. If you did get the idea from us we would be obliged if you put something in your author's notes about it. 
Thank you!
-Katie and Scarlet

I'm going to be frank with this. First, I have never read her fanfic before. I didn't even know she was a using an idea like that. Now let's be general and open. My fanfic was inspired by a friend who loves shonenai as much as I do. I even admitted to the entire anime club that I really love shonenai and one day, we were talking about male couples when we stumbled upon mpreg because there was once she told she read a fanfic in winglin about male pregnancy.

I am not making this matter big, because I actually learn something from this and I hope the authors understand.

First, there is such thing as coincidences. I really didn't know they had a fanfic like that and I have never read it. It was only YESTERDAY, I read it and believe it or not, there wasn't much of a similarity between the fanfics only except for the some. It wasn't like I copy and pasted their ideas into my fanfic mind you, I have my own ideas too. I am not dependent on your style of writing so beat that.

I discussed with my friends and even showed them their fanfic and mine. She said, there wasn't much of a resemblance aside from the general idea they were using. Even I read it many times and I only spot a few which doesn't mean they have the right to actually accuse me for somehow taking their idea and not crediting their work. Yes, if I was really inspired by a fanfic I would I would credit them just like my deviantart where I credit the artist for their inspiration. 

Ideas are meant to be shared like you said, but you really are making a big fuss out of it aren't you? So, I have explained it clearly and you aren't replying me which means you don't have anything to say do you?

There was also another email from, this reader, Katie (who I believe is the author of that fanfic) and the way you said it really pushed my buttons. I am not immature who finds excuses by saying is a coincidence. Because let me tell this to your face, IT IS THE TRUTH. It was a coincidence. 

Well then, I am SORRY if I stepped on your pudgy ass or STOLE your content and ideas but seriously, because I have learnt my lesson before. And now, I will continue to post the story and let there be no more said.