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2010-02-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

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Big Bang wins but Japanese Fans rage?

2010-01-02T20:42:00.001+08:00

I'm pretty sure everyone in allkpop heard the news about Big Bang winning Rookie New Comer Award at the 51st Records Awards in Japan. And this of course, in the process, beating other upcoming newcomers like Maya Sakura, Scandal and Hilcrhyme. However, the Japanese Netizens in fact are very displeased by this factor and therefore, protested about the unfair victory.

This was taken from allkpop; let's see what they have to say.

A day after Big Bang won its award at the Japan Record Awards, Worldwide Arts Show, a popular news blog, and 2CH, a large internet community, were flooded with attacks and protests against Big Bang's victory, claiming that the judging criteria was flawed. "A Korean boy group that I haven't even heard of nor seen received the Best Newcomer Award through a shady judging process," an individual remarked.

Netizens argued that Big Bang's record sales, which fell behind many other newcomers of the year, were overlooked by the judging panel. For example, Hilcrhyme sold 108,000 record copies, dominating Big Bang's 41,000 sales count. Furthermore, Hilcrhyme's track Shunkashūtō was ranked #1 on Japan's top-selling singles list for the week of September 22, whereas Big Bang has yet to make the list with any of its tracks. "Record sales are an important part of judging criteria, so what kind of criteria did the judges use?" many netizens questioned.

Interestingly enough, Big Bang's Best Newcomer Award at the 42nd Japan Cable Daesang earlier in December, which also beat Hilcrhyme and Maya Sakura, was met without a ruckus. Others have pointed out that Hilcrhyme's Shunkashūtō was released in September, whereas Big Bang released Let Me Hear Your Voice in November, which may have resulted in Big Bang's lower sales count.

credits to allkpop and other sources like BBVIP FORUMS.

I am a very neutral person and therefore, I won't make any wild accusations about this matter. I do love Big Bang and I enjoy their music very much, but now, I have to be honest with my opinion. I do agree with the Japanese Netizens when they displayed much disappointment towards the judging. Fine, I admit Big Bang has been around Japan for a pretty decent durations, promoting their songs here and there. Even to the extent, G-Dragon make collaborations with w-inds for their single Raining (I think). Big Bang are striving their best for the best to make it big in Japan as well as Korea.

But please do note, that this is in fact the reason why I am quite surprised.

Big Bang, though they have been progressing well, their sales for their singles and albums are not very satisfying meaning, their sales record are just average. Of course the upcoming artists had it much worse with just only 8000+ sales where as Big Bang had 30000+ sales with their singles, thus the consistency.

Perhaps this is how the judges count their judging through the number of sales and therefore making it an obvious win for Big Bang. That is one.

And the most amusing part is, most Japanese Netizens do NOT KNOW Big Bang. In others words, they're not widely known in Japan. And therefore, the question of sales again is added into the picture. TVXQ was not widely known in Japan that time and thus, they could only take on 7000+ sales for just their first single. Big Bang on the other hand, have been actually indulging themselves into the Japanese music industry recently in 2008 with their so called Japanese Albums which just only consists of English songs and half sang japanese songs. And yet, they make such a big impact on the sales taking 30000+ on their first single.

Aside from that, Big Bang's way of promotion is not very effective either compared to TVXQ which is why not many OR to say MOST Japanese Netizens do not know of their existence. And even when they try to promote themselves is just sad. It's like, they don't want their music to be heard at all.

I understand it is the culture and language which bares the problem for Big Bang because they have just recently learn Japanese whereas TVXQ and BoA have mastered it and now can speak Japanese fluently. To me, Big Bang's songs are pretty much alright and addictive, but not breathtaking.

Their songs are not something to wow about but more like something that gets stuck in your head for a period of time. The only songs that wowed me from Big Bang honestly was Lies and Oh my Friend. Other than that, their songs are just very; typical Big Bang songs. And what saddens me is that some people with such biasness towards Big Bang comment and bash the Japanese Netizens calling them racists and unfair towards foreigners. Also, because they are such loyal fans towards Big Bang, they have the fuck to bring up the issue on their hardwork towards their music and how they deserve it and all.

I am not saying they don't deserve it but bringing up the hard work issue really puts me into questioning you guys.

"Are you saying that Big Bang is the ONLY GOD DAMN BOYBAND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD THAT PUT GREAT EFFORTS TO THEIR ALBUM?"

My answer is no.

There are a lot more artists in Japan who I dare say, perhaps work twice as hard as Big Bang to reach into a level where they are known WIDELY among the Japanese Netizens. How dare you say such pressing issues when you don't know that there are some japanese artists perhaps who are much BETTER than Big Bang are working their ass off into getting their one and only single to the charts.

And you dare comment that Big Bang's fanbase in Korea is much bigger and therefore it should be the same in Japan.

You are just god damn wrong.

Despite TVXQ's success in Korea and their building fanbase in Korea, they didn't do that well at first when they first started out in Japan. Their fanbase at that time was minimal and their Japanese wasn't very good either way.

But the way they promoted themselves was amazing. Even taking one year off from Korea just to promote themselves in Japan thus, naming that particular year, Tohoshinki year (which is their japanese name for TVXQ) which is why THSK's sales at this rate now are much, much more reasonable that what I am seeing now.

Fine, perhaps another reason for BB's sales is also because of their music which perhaps suits some of the Japanese fans taste. But that didn't give them a reason to win such an award. I suppose, it's different now where foreigners are beginning to succeed in certain countries but I feel quite bad for Hilcrhyme because I thought their first single was really good but then the other two was pretty much okay. And considering they are locals, they should deserve the award instead of Big Bang. But after all, I have to say Big Bang as well have put in much effort to make it big and therefore winning such a prestigious award is a big accomplishment to them.

To sum it all up, Big Bang has A LONG WAY MORE to go before reaching that certain level where I can just put my hands down and salute them. Therefore, I actually do side the Japanese Netizens about this matter. Everyone has to start from small and despite the low numbers, they need to have more initiative to promote themselves. I love Big Bang but I don't think they are ready enough to deserve the award.

But on a happier note, I am also proud of them for making it all this way from a nobody to a somebody in Korea and also winning an honourable award for best newcomer.

And also I do hope they will continue to improve instead of flopping down all the way which I know they won't because I have faith in them.

Hmm oh yeah

2010-01-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking of opening a new blog for a new start because well, I get pretty bored with everything apparently hahah. But then again, we'll see how it goes.

I just packed everything for NS. Filling in applications later in the night. Right now, I just want a moment of silence. I'm actually texting with Cat because well I'm bored. Heh, all the wonderful things I'm going to miss.

It's 2010.

Heh, I don't see a single digit anymore.

NEW YEAR!

2010-01-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

2010 IS HERE BABY!

OMG FIREWORKS BOMBING MY HOUSE DOWN MAN :( NOT COOL BUT

HAPPPYYYYY NEW YEARRRRRRR :D

What would you say pal?

2009-12-31T22:43:00.004+08:00

I just finished packing for NS. Sigh, and I gotta fill in the freaking application forms later. What a way to spent New Year's :D

So my resolutions ah?

Well here goes nothing. In no particular order:

To get through NS and return in one piece.
Do absolutely well in college.
Strive harder and change work attitude which means, more hardworking.
Be a nice person and not be evil (Like Dr. Doofen..blabla)
Lose weight! >( such a main priority
Try to save some money- for future savings
Improve in all my designs
Have a really good and strong character. Try not to be sensitive I guess?
Meet G-dragon and hang out with him (though this will not happen but a girl can dream)

~~SLEEP WITH G-DRAGON (HAHAHA JOKINGGGG do not kill me rabid fangirls)~~

I have more actually but these are the main ones so far :)

I'm going to miss 2009. Omg, an hour's time and it's all over. 2009. And high school. Such a sad situation but it's not absurd. It's a good thing, that we're all moving on to greater heights.

LEAP! :D

Happy New Year's!

2009-12-31T18:37:00.002+08:00

Again, we're closing another year and opening a new one. It makes me nostalgic really because 2009 was a good year.

Perhaps in the past few months, I've lost and gain many things. My resolutions still remain the same and forever will remain the same. I am, somehow truly sorry to those I have angered and disappointed.

It's time to let go and move on.

Sigh. So sad, it's ending. I'm not going to bore you with the whole sad, new year post and resolutions cause it's all going to be the same. May we all achieve the happiness and success that comes our way, seniors of 2009 :)

I am sure we will find our way and truly our way in college towards the road of our future. May God bless you all and may all your prayers be answered. There are so many things I really want to say now but it just can't be helped at times because it's best to enjoy what we have right now.

Just hours away from 2010.

can't believe it?

haha.

believe it.

I'm finally closing my last chapter. I'm opening a new chapter, a new story to my current life. Perhaps, my 3 months in National Service will teach me something about missing home, being strong, being independent, loyalty, love, friendship, hardship, consequences and so much more.

Perhaps I should take college as something new and great to look forward to.

we'll be worlds apart, but mine's just beginning.

I shall end, with.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Bangkok Day 1

2009-12-29T12:32:00.011+08:00

Yes, I have decided to be a good girl and post the timeline of my vacation in Bangkok. And my pictures are up so it's a good thing I guess! I'm gonna skip the whole morning and packing process because the packing process was so tedious, I could really feel the nerves in my veins popping out. Nevertheless, we made it through.

Before we left

We sat on Thai Airlines which was pretty damn cool because there's a tv in front which means more watching movies :D But sadly, my damn tv didn't work so I had to settle for Melissa Hill. For an hour and 45 minutes, I was reading Melissa Hill *pouts*

But nevertheless, it made me happier again when I received nice purple complementary flowers from the cabin crew which was so nice. I happily clipped it on my bag because it looks so nice.

We arrived at Bangkok around 3 and we took the bus and headed straight for Pattaya! We were cruising on the bus and it's amazing how Bangkok is so huge hahah. Well after hours and hours of sleeping, we arrived at Pattaya :S The beach was so nice and and and wide. But sadly there were so many people crowding that it kindda lost the taste of beach. Meh, seems so funny eh? We stayed at a boutique hotel called Dusit. The hotel's really classy and small but it was so modern, the design I mean that I just can't help looking at it.

They even give you free complementary drinks!

And apparently XING (yep, I hope you guys still remember them) used to stay there!

And the rooms, were AMAZING. LORD. I LOVE THE BATHROOM I WANT MY TOILET AND BATHROOM TO BE LIKE THAT SERIOUSLY. I WANT I WANT I WANT. Nyeh,

And soon we left the hotel and went up to the Pattaya peak point where we could see the whole city of Pattaya from above :) and we were greeted with a beautiful tinge of sunset.

ps: i'll edit this later.

The latter has returned!

2009-12-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

Yes, well I have returned from Bangkok and well, I know all of you miss me (the feeling's growing again) but then again, it's 12.51 am here and I terribly miss Bangkok. Will post more about this soon. I think today, I'm gonna try and go to One Academy again and see what I can do. Hopefully, can enroll straight away. Sigh, will only be taking the April intake because sadly, NS awaits me.

Anyways, throughout the Bangkok trip. It was a blast thought Christmas wasn't spent the way I wanted it to be nonetheless, it was a good trip. Aside from that, I have such great company with me.

My family, myself and my books.

Yes, I brought books along to read. I brought Melissa Hill's Wishful Thinking which was a good read and currently reading Lipstick Jungle by Candace Bushnell (keep thinking Bunshell)

Oh well.

Gotta go sleep soon actually. Haahha. I'll blog more tomorrow.

Jack Sparrow Render :D

2009-12-20T19:26:00.004+08:00

3 days of rendering and waiting and waiting, I finally finished it todayyy :D

I am a happy person :)

ps: nah andey! sorrry, file too big and excuse the bad camera angle cause the paper couldn't fit my scannerrrrrrrrrrrr :(

More on that bit

2009-12-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

Just got back from Prom. Details will be updated later but for now, let's get on to better things:

Answer the questions using this: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
The Yeong Shin Goes Straight to Your Head

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Plop, Plop, Fizz, Fizz, Oh, What a Yeong Shin it is!

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Built Yeong Shin Tough

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Moving at the speed of Yeong Shin

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
The Yeong Shin of your life

6. To someone you dislike?
Have a break. Have a Yeong Shin

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Smart. Beautiful. Yeong Shin

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Everything we do is Driven by Yeong Shin

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
A Yeong Shin works wonders

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
The Lion Goes from Yeong Shin to Yeong Shin

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Yeong Shin with the Hole

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
Why Have Cotton When You Can Have Yeong Shin?

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Snap Into A Slim Yeong Shin

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Yeong Shin Makes Everything Better

15. Your last words before you die...
Your Flexible Yeong Shin

16. Your message to a special someone..
The Best Yeong Shin Under One Roof

17. Title of this post will be...
The Coolest Yeong Shin On Ice

Muahaha, so farnay :D

This has been a while :)

2009-12-17T14:12:00.003+08:00

Tags! Well I found the tag anyways so why not?

1. Name : Yeong Shin
2. Birthday : 25 March (remember that)
3. Who tagged you : I found it?
4. Name 5 of your best friends : I have a lot
5. What do you want for your bday present : I want a sunflower field. Get me one and I'll worship you.
6. Happiest thing you have gone through recently : A lot?
7. Recent pressure : Posterssss! And renderingsss! :(
8. Ambition : Graphic Designer; hopefully.
9. Do you have a lover : Maybe :)
10. Will you look for your teachers during an alumni association : Of course!
11. Who makes you happy during an outing : Depends :)
12. If 2 of your friends are arguing : I'll leave them be until they come up to me
13. Where do you want to go with your lover : Somewhere only we know
14. What do you want to do during Christmas : Singggg! And design?
15. Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Everyone I love :)
16. Do you have the excitement of waking up? : Not really
17. How many siblings do you have : 4 sisters, yes a very big family
18. Which song u like the most (female) : Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson
19. Which song u like the most (male) : Broken by Lifehouse (male band okay!)
20. What colour do you like : Blue
21. Will you flush before use the toilet : if it's dirty, yes
22. Do you love me : Who?
23. Do you like male or female : Can't we have bisexual?
24. Shout out loud : YAIIII.
25. Dare to go for a pee at midnight : Obviously? Unless..well yeah
26. Will you take off ur pants when you're peeing? : BBQ.
27. Who are supposed to be whacked? : Hmmm :)
28. What are you crazy of recently : Many things actually :O
29. How is your sleeping look : Like a hippo
30. What time is it : 2.18 pm
31. Do you dislike the person who got you tagged : I dislike me?
32. Your weight : Now, I don't want to.
33. Weather : HOT.
34. Are you pregnant : Heck no
35. What will you do if you've won a lottery : Shop, and save up man.
36. An activity of the undergraduate students : Sleep.
37. Add a colour into rainbow : Gold
38. Do you think friendship is true-hearted : Hmm..
39. Do you know spring : I know autumn
40. Who do you like in TVXQ : Yoo Chun
41. List out 5 of your flaws : FAT, Shop too much?, Read too much, Sleep too much and Game too much.
42. List out 2 sentences you like : You're like a marshmallow growing, SOUP!
43. What do you like to eat : food?
44. You pray to god for : Many things
45. Brands you prefer : ALOT LA.

Views on such tales

2009-12-17T01:05:00.004+08:00

Lalala, it's that time of the year *grumbles*

I can't sleep for some reason (grumbles again) Hmm, I'll just post some random pictures which I love :)

Gahahah! Baby chibi Squall! Hmm alot of people have been asking me who's my favourite Final Fantasy Character. Hmm, I shall explain now since I can't sleep and because I'm a very happy person (well kind of)

My all time favourite to me is Squall Leonhart. Cause he's so broodingly handsome. So what if there's a scar? Screw you bitches. Compared to the Tidus, he's much more mature and I guess he has this charm that attracts almost everyone else.

Eeeee why must you be so charming :)

My second one is actually Noctis. Though this doesn't stay very long considering it might change since I haven't played the game but Noctis is a very different character in terms of his dark side personality and bad ass hair. Other than that, he's really good looking.

Noctis also called Noct, despite the weird name.

For now :) Eh, so brooding and handsome :)

A Night at Shanghai

2009-12-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

So a proper post, Aaron's party was amazing. So what did we do? How did it go? What was the theme and everything? Well that will be self explained sooner. After getting me cheong sam, I put on my heels and was off for the party. The place was quite near my place so I didn't have a problem getting there but the problem was finding the ballroom. But well Natalie, Sheung Fang, Siew Hwei and I eventually found it.

Everyone was dressed at their best with suxh exquisite taste of cheong sam. Everyone looked lovely! I was beginning to think that this party was really heating up with such an interesting theme. It was nice once in a while to wear something so pretty instead of the boring prom dresses routine all the time.

But it was really lovely.

Everyone had their share of fun. We folded origamis, played games, had so much fun laughing and the best of all, we get to dance.

I haven't had so much fun dancing in my entire life. One day, we shall go clubbing okay? Lol but then again, I had nothing much to say. Because the night itself explains it. It was amazing.

Thank you Aaron for inviting me :)

It's so epic

2009-12-13T01:49:00.003+08:00

I have good news and well it's not entirely GOOD but well it satisfies me. I am about to finish Tomb Raider Underworld! Yes, I know, after like weeks of disregarding it, it's about to finish. Well, not yet. I still have to go through one more sub mission which is so hard and epic but it's going to be fun as hell.

Aside from that, my sister returned from England got me, well.. a Marc Jacobs keychain but it's okay I guess. Hmm what else?

Oh yeah, I actually finally got the time to cut my hair :O Well my mother wanted it short so well, I went with her to Bangsar Village II to get my haircut and it turned out like this:

Sigh I know it's short okay! But at least I still can tie my hair. And excuse the retarded face, I look better like that apparently :O

And I bought myself another book and read it in one day :) It's Mitch Albom's Have a little faith. I'll be doing a book review on it tomorrow since I'm really tired today and tomorrow, I'm going to One U to collect my prom outfit. Muahah, life's good when you have chocolate.

Anyhoo, I can't wait for Art as well. Hmm, yeah.

I miss Andrea. She's been MIA-ing. Or maybe..I just can't contact her enough. Ah well, I'll see her soon hopefully. I hope so.

What really matters?

2009-12-12T18:09:00.004+08:00

People are very materialistic to say. Women especially. At times, I feel like that too. I always wanted so much more than what I have. I always dared myself to wear clothes I can't even fit. I always make myself believe that I am slimmer but when actually I am not all that slim.

So today, I went looking for my prom dress and my mother found a decent one for me. It looked so plain because it was just all black.

But the moment I wore it.

It looked very decent. Even if it's such a dull, plain and meaningless colour, it looked decent on me, decent enough for my mother to say, "You look good."

When I got home, after reading a book I have bought today, I realised something. True enough I am not as slim as before. Not as fit as before. Not scientifically proven beautiful like Lee Hyori but it made me realise that..

"Why should you be like others? We are all different in many ways. God gave us a body and we taunt it. But even all that, we should make the best out of it. Even if all clothes do not fit us, we should find the right one just for us, but always remember, you make the dress beautiful not the dress make you beautiful. Also, you should be thankful that you're given a body to begin with."

I thank God for blessing my family with love and I will always be grateful for the things that you've done for my family.

Now and always.

Tomb Raider: Underworld

2009-12-11T20:20:00.003+08:00

I've been playing the shit out of this:

Tomb Raider has been one of my favourite adventure games ever since I was like 12? My uncle loves Tomb Raider as well and always play the shit out of it. So I did. I played Tomb Raider II and Tomb Raider III. This is actually my third Tomb Raider game I'm playing. I'm actually trying to get Tomb Raider: Legend and Tomb Raider: Anniversary but we'll see about that.

TR: Underworld is much more, harder than the ones I played earlier but it's not so bad either. The puzzles in this game are pretty ridiculous because well, they are but it's a hell load of fun. You will see Lara encountering with traps, monsters, weird people, climb fortresses, swim, climb rocks, riding motorcycle, making epic moments and going on so many dangerous trips. But that's why she's Lara Croft, our Tomb Raider.

Underworld is much more darker than the previous games where it actually follows up from Tomb Raider: Legend which I am yet to play. Aside from that, I haven't entirely run through this game but I am about to finish it tonight, hopefully or if not, I'll continue in the morning. But this game is epic as hell. I love it so much that it gives me headache. One thing I hate about this game is the ugly camera angles which half of the time, when I turn the angles, either I'll be seeing her gigantic breasts, butt, hair, hair tie or her eyelashes.

And this is my first playthrough so Lara dies alot. Like..ALOT.

Her gymnastic skills were displayed tremendously displayed in the game like the beams and the parallel bars. Well, to me at least cause I haven't played the previous installments but I would love to. I am excited cause I really want to finish the game as soon as possible so that I can unlock more awesome stuffs that I've never seen.

Oh well, if you're interested in tomb raiding, I suggest you get this game as well :)

My History of Shoes

2009-12-10T11:00:00.009+08:00

Well, yes as you all know, I don't shop that much though I say I want to shop but in the end, I'll end up buying books or food. For today, I will reveal to you my shoe collection! You may think it's going to be like a quadruple post of it but no, even one post can fit the description of all these shoes. Why? Well one thing is because, I'm just going to do the heels and wedges section. And believe me, I think two posts is like enough to cover my whole section of shoe collection because it's THAT little.

I present you my first pair of heels:

Colour: White, yes it used to be white

Brand: Sakura

Year: 2005

My very first pair which I wore for formal functions. They look so old now. It's 4 years old already and yes I still keep it cause it's so comfortable to wear :)

My second pair:

Colour: Well, you can tell can you? Silver

Brand: Vincci

Year: 2008

Well, because my mother said I should get something formal for like formal parties or something like that. But it's so old now. Sigh, I've been using it for a year already. I got this last year I think.

My third pair:

Colour: Black

Brand: Charles and Keith

Year: 2009

Yes I got this baby only around this year and it's my most prized possession. Cause it's my first time wearing heels THIS HIGH. Well yeah. Anyways, I got used to it already since it's so sexy. Haha, should wear this more often.

My fourth pair:

Colour: Light blue/Fusion of blues

Brand: E-kiss from Korea

Year: 2009

I found this at the Curve cause it was on sale! And it was sooo cute and I loved it so much. I love korean products :) They make me a very happy person like always. Either way, it's really, really cute.

My fifth pair:

Colour: Purple, Pink, Blue (yes it's all fused together)

Brand: Nichii

Year: 2009

I went shopping for this yesterday and it's soo nice omgoodness. I love it so much cause it's well tall and it makes me look tall as well. I love this because the straps are so nice. It's a really nice touch. I love.

And my last pair:

Colour: Black denim

Brand: Neo

Year: 2009

Got this from yesterday too. I love this shoe the best. It's from Hong Kong and the denim material is so nice. And it's a pretty reasonable pricing because well, considering it's so sexy, I love :) And it's incredibly high.

Yes that's all I have. Six pairs of heels and I think that's already..like 3/4 of my shoe collection. My shoe collection NEVER reached a tenth rating. You see if you're wondering why I have such little shoes, that's because I never liked shopping. Let alone, heels aren't my kind of thing but now, I'm getting used to it. Takes practice man. Mostly, my shoes are actually hand me downs thanks to my sisters who don't wear them occasionally so I wear them. That's why it makes it look like I have LOADS OF SHOES. But no, these are the only ones I have. Pretty ridiculous huh? But it's more than enough. I don't want to flood my room with shoes okay :(

I would like to post pictures of the heels of those shoes but nah, I'm just too lazy.

On a side note, I got two more posts coming up for book reviews and my overall day.

2012

2009-12-09T21:23:00.003+08:00

I watched this today:

It was not as amazing as I thought but it will definitely bring something. This movie is so epic. I am not joking, it's so epic, I thought it was funny. If it inspires you, I salute you. Well it did so I salute it. But overall, I'm really too lazy to explain the story plot. So I'm just going to say.

Nothing lasts forever, not even Earth itself. Though we cannot control the forces of nature but at least, appreciate and enjoy what we really have now? Earth is our mother. And we are Her children. Love what we have before it's gone. But remember, Earth itself is healing on her own. To help her heal, stop everything. Stop and stare and witness as a miracle sparks into the skies.

And we see, hope again.

I rate it 7.5/10. It's just so epic la.

Anyways, I was out with my new shopping buddy. Yes I have a new shopping buddy haha! So we went to Borders to get The Time Traveler's Wife book. Then we went to the gamer's stall where I bought seven games in total. Afterwards, we went to the movies to watch 2012. After 2012, with one hour to kill, we went walking around. I went to Nichii after so long not returning to Nichii to look around and I saw some very nice wedges with a reasonable price. After much pondering, I bought them (yes I think about these things very thoroughly, I'm that weird). Next, we went walking around and we stopped by a few shops to try on some shoes.

I was looking for some gladiators and finally, found one. And it was cheap so don't judge me. I'm that concerned about my money. So with the remaining money, I went looking around and shopping buddy bought me a necklace. A very cute one I must say. And it's cheap as well.

So we went walking around until we stumbled upon this shoe shop, with the nicest pairs of denim heels ever. I was practically drooling at it. The price was actually MUCH reasonable enough. But enough to make the both of us to empty our pockets.

After all that fuss, we sat down for a while until my mother, called and said it was time to go. Well we parted ways after that. In total I bought:

A book
Seven PS2 games
3 Shoes
A neckalce

Trust me, enough to make you go wild ;)

I am never shopping after this anymore. This was actually a first, I mean, shopping on my own but of course with the help of my new shopping buddy.

Awesome day? Hell yeah!

Does your heart beat faster?

2009-12-08T10:06:00.008+08:00

I'm actually barely awake now but I'm still up for some reason.

Why do I only see the lightest colour?

I admit I haven't been blogging as well as I thought but that's going to change. The fact that I have all the time in world, I will try and update a little bit of here and there before this year ends.

I have only a few more weeks to spend before I leave for the National Service and no, I am not going to explain what is it because it's too cheap for that. And yes, the picture above was taken by me. It's not a stock picture. Let's see, today, I don't know what to do.

The problem after SPM?

Your head's gonna be blank for a bit.

Yes and it's true. I think I should go take a walk. Sigh, such interesting moments. I would like to go out really but I'm too lazy for that. But maybe I should read some books? I don't know.

On a lighter note: My sister's coming back from England. I feel like changing the blog template because it feels too, wide. I think I should be doing something more productive. Well, actually I managed to finish watching Forrest Gump.

Hi my name's Forrest, Forrest Gump.

It was a good movie, I almost teared and it's just so god damn funny. Life's a box of chocolates, you never know what you get. - Momma Gump :P

Run Forrest, RUN!

"How does it feel like being All-American?"

"I gotta pee."

"I'm not a smart man..but I know what love is."

"Ice cream!"

Haha, I love this movie :) Hmm, I need more movies to watch. I'll go on movie junkie mode today :D Thing is, I don't have a lot of movies to watch but well, I'll find some time to review the movies that I have watched.

How long do you want me to wait?

Movies I definitely want to watch now.

Well there's more, to be updated :)

Oh really? It's done?

2009-12-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

SPM is finally over. Well, at least for me.

It's my last time, sitting for my high school exams.

No more late night studying for Sejarah.

No more raping my books.

No more struggling over Bahasa Melayu.

No more forcing my head to remember 1000 peribahasas.

No more waking up early to revise.

It's all over :)

And to celebrate that, I watched a movie today with my sister and it's..

I am darn lazy to explain the story plot but we all know Mr. Scrooge now do we?

Thing is, I never actually imagined any Disney Movies to be as dark as this. It actually scared me a little bit because of the sound effects which was awesome and the ever surprising scares. It was definitely something different. And it was alright. I rate it 7/10. Well because, I still love Jim Carrey.

I love Charles Dickens' books. Especially this one and I must say Disney pulled it off easily.

Movies I want to watch next?

1) 2012

2) Ninja Assasin

3) Love Happens

Yes, please? :)

Mindless brains

2009-12-05T20:10:00.003+08:00

credits to camiloo :)

I see a lollipop. Hmm, that's interesting because I love lollipops :) well aside from that. You see, it may seem like a happy picture but well that's not the point. No it's not a happy post actually but I love lollipops you see so there we go.

If you really have the time to take a look back, there were so many things I could have accomplished in my life. It's just that time of the year where after your last exam paper and last final paper of high school you tend to sit back and think.

What are we going to do for the rest of our lives?

I have always been inspired by my friends. Many friends. I could have been so much more than just an average girl. The reason why I joined so many sports, choirs, musicals and expeditions. It was just so that I could gain my interest in them. I studied extra hard so that I could gain my excellent results and what not. I'm a singer but I'm in the choir, I'm not a dancer but I joined cheerleading. I'm not an athletic person but I joined so many sports just so I could gain recognition from others, to make my own name.

But how is it that, some people don't have to do anything at all but they are just so, well known straight away?

I wish I could be someone else. That was what I always say.

I wish I was more sporting, more loving, more musical, more defined with what I have now.

But, I take that all back.

Why should I be all that? When I can just be myself alone? Why should I force myself into joining sports I don't love and singing when I am just not as good as the others? Surely enough I love singing, but not as a career. I love dancing, but as a hobby, not as a career. I love sports but not as a career.

I love piano, but never in my life I would take it as my profession. Guitar is my interest but I am not musically inclined. I am not tone deaf but my interest is just not in there. My heart belongs to the artistic world yes, because I love art. I love drawing even if people seem to hate it so much. Even if people seem to stress about it so much but I never ever felt stressed about art (except for the folio yes). I love graphic designing. I am not good like the many others but I love it because I want people to know my work, comment, critic and I would like to share my own piece to the whole world.

Like how Andrea Bocelli shared his voice and songs to the whole world. Like how Mother Theresa shared her peace and joy to the world. Like how Earth shared its life to us all.

I want people to be inspired by my works. I want people to look at my works and comment. Even if they're bad or good, I still appreciate my work.

People keep asking me, "Hey, you're doing a-levels?"

No, I am not for the final time and never would I ever do A-levels. I am still thinking about my foundation but no, not a-levels. I am yet to look for colleges but I shall leave that for later. I am enjoying my art classes and hope to take them until I leave for college.

This year has been great for me. Through this, I realised what I really loved and what I don't really loved or have interest in it. I realised how I deeply understand myself even more with the help of my friends and understand the meaning of enjoying the best moments of life even if it fails you.

Because I am happy being me.

I can change for the better but I don't wanna be someone else. I want to be me. Average but awesome. I am happy for the talent that I am given, happy for the things I loved doing most and most of all, happy that I am living in this life with no regrets.

A phrase that will haunt you for life is, "If I just could..." or.."If I have.."

live the life you love, love the life you live.

you're only 17 once, live it.

Fun Quotes :)

2009-12-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

"Alright! It's two on two baby! I take the breasts you take the- screw it."

-vash

so epic :)

I wake up and find that you're not here

2009-12-04T22:24:00.004+08:00

Because there's love, there's hope.

Give them a chance to grow.

They're our lives too.

Our lives.

Because it's who we are

2009-12-04T16:39:00.003+08:00

Even the sharpest thorns, can't pierce through this broken heart;

Apologizing;

does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right.

it just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

And you call yourself a woman?

2009-12-03T00:49:00.004+08:00

So..

Just two more days and that's the end of high school life? *gasp in horror* Today after my papers, I sketched my art piece and I think it looks good. Hopefully I won't mess it up with the colour. Aside from that, I am annoyed.

Really annoyed.

Having to wait here until the download finishes? It's very annoying no kidding.

Hmm, I opened a new blog for a new start right?

I don't understand the world now. Is it me or are we going back in time to the days where men and women don't even know how their blood taste like? Do you really need to go to the extent of writing such a ludicrous note to your celebrity in that kind of form? What benefit do you get from this?

Fame? Attention?

Sure you got all that.

Seriously. You actually would give up anything of you just to tell him you love him? If that's love for you, I'm so sorry, your love ain't my kind of love.

If you don't know what I'm talking about, just ignore it. Unless you read allkpop, then you'll know.

And you call yourself a girl?

Fine a little mean there but seriously, would you do it if you actually had the chance?

What a day?

2009-11-29T12:23:00.002+08:00

Okay, I've been revising accounts for the past few days and my head is really getting the symptoms. Too much Accounts.

Aside from that, I don't know what I'll be drawing for Art because I can't seem to find my paper anywhere but but but, I do roughly know the questions.

And the most obvious one is the watermelon house, which I highly doubt I want to draw it. Because it looks really, well annoying?

But I might consider the fish tank one cause it's cool and I wanna try :)

Now, I want to try using tumblr because I want to have a proper blog so that I can rant about ANYTHING interesting and also, blogger is a little too bleh for me. So I am going to try out tumblr. For the time being.

New Moooooo-N

2009-11-27T10:19:00.003+08:00

Yes yesterday night, I went to watch New Moon with MooWoo, MJ and Janice. Well, I might wanna brag a bit here and there but oh well, yeah. I'm just gonna say it.

Wait, of course let me put some posters up so that you'll know what I'm talking about.

Over all?

I like it better than Twilight. But the slow moving pace scenes are really annoying and disturbing. Sure it has more humour to it but it could have been done better. So much better. The thing is, they should really change the actors and actresses. Ashley Greene is fine cause she portrays Alice just like how Alice should be. But Bella? Goodness. I don't mean to say she's BAD but Kristen really can't pull it off. Yes, Bella is annoying in the book but looking at Kristen acting out as her, oh my goodness. And Robert Pattinson (Pattison whatever), he has the most disturbing effect of a vampire. The moment he took off his shirt, my eyes just could just drop out from my sockets. Yes, it was that EYESORE. Where as Jacob played by Taylor Lautner, wasn't that bad either. He had the abs, buff daddy look but I don't know, he's a little lack of something as well.

Overall, I didn't like this book either but hopefully they pull of Eclipse better because the last few parts of Eclipse is the one that's gonna bring out the challenge.

And this movie?

I rate it 3.5/5. I rated Twilight 2 because it was THAT BAD. And that book was my favourite book of all and I rated it 2 for the movie.

And the ending of New Moon? Abrupt, Absurd, Ludicrous.

Match it up? Yes.

And even better, I wish they didn't have to make a movie out of Twilight. I mean not because I hate the book or anything but it's so hard to just imagine the Godly Edward Cullen that Stephenie Meyer described to be portrayed by HIM.

But all in all, I'll still keep watching.

Till well, it gets better and better.

I quote from Stephen King.

"The real difference [between J.K. Rowling and Meyer] is that JK Rowling is a terrific writer, and Stephenie Meyer can't write worth a darn. She's not very good." However, King understood the appeal of the series, adding, "People are attracted by the stories, by the pace and in the case of Stephenie Meyer, it's very clear that she's writing to a whole generation of girls and opening up kind of a safe joining of love and sex in those books. It's exciting and it's thrilling and it's not particularly threatening because it's not overly sexual."

Materialistic matters

2009-11-24T17:32:00.005+08:00

So you see, just now. I was out with my mum and my younger sister for a shopping spree at my mum's stack of heaven. I was there, with the store attendants asking me try out EVERY FREAKING SHIRT/LEGGINGS/TIGHTS/SHORTS/PANTS they could reach.

And with that, I was of course annoyed but finally out of the thousands of pile, I only bought one top. I know so pathetic.

Now this is the best bit.

You see, I never had a handbag of my own cause I've been using my sister's/mum's hand me downs. Second hand. So I was looking through some handbags and then my mum showed me this, purple 'PRADA' bag which was really, really nice! The cutting was really nice for some reason I liked it. So my mum said, just go get it.

Yeah. So my first happiness.

Second, there was this white watch that was so pretty. It was slick and sexy. So I told my mum this is nice. So well I got it.

And now, the best part.

The bag cost me my LIFE. It was THAT EXPENSIVE. And needless to say about the watch? In total for those bloody things, I spent 1000+ over. My heart sank.

If I knew, it was THAT expensive, I wouldn't buy it (call me cheap but yes I am that particular about prices)

Throughout the entire journey I was very gloomy but well at least this taught me something.

"ALWAYS LOOK AT THE PRICE FIRST BEFORE BEING BLINDED BY IT'S GLAM."

Sigh such a painful lesson. There goes my savings.

And the moral of the story is?

2009-11-24T13:55:00.002+08:00

Today, I sat for my final Pendidikan Moral exam. Yes it's the SPM one. Now I'm not gonna brag about how the paper was because to me, it's all the same. But while doing the paper and upon re-checking it, I thought about something. Something that needs to be done but somehow, people failed to realise this.

The point of learning Moral. That is the big question. Many people asked the ministry, "Why is Moral a compulsory subject?"

And they even dare, DARE to even explain about how the crime rates are going up and how moral needs to be exposed to children at a tender age. But honestly, did that really worked?

If really, MORAL was an inspiring subject, the crime rates would have dropped miraculously, leaving just the good people to die for. Does this mean we have to study all 36 moral values and burn them into our brain till we're old and grey? The only thing people remember from this exam paper is how bullshit it is.

I am not insulting my country's education system but I'm actually questioning them about the education system they're revolving around. It is something we learn through experiences, life threatening moments, memories, exposure but not through books. Books, I believed are inspirations which you can learn from and it will last forever. Like Mitch Albom. He doesn't even need to list out 36 moral values and yet he made a big impact to readers who are just awed by his simple language but yet, beautiful sentence construction and choice of words.

But what about our Moral textbook? Moral values? We gruel them everyday, for almost two years and in the end, we get nothing. Why?

That's because, it's an examination.

An examination to test your moral values? I beg to differ. I can laugh my ass all the way to college saying, hey we have an exam for moral! And it's a compulsory one!

Aren't moral values something we learn through the little things in life that makes it so imperfect? Aren't moral values something that we do not need to know it's definition but know the depths of reaching out to people who need them? Aren't moral values the teachers instead of the books being the teachers and teaching us about moral values? Aren't moral values something that we cannot absorb and study hard for it but something that we have learn through the everyday things that we encounter?

Why do we even have to memorise so much and yet in the end, we don't apply these rules to the principles of life? Why is it that those who scored 17 A1's but apparently, failed entrance exams in high standards and means of college exams internationally? Why is that even high school drop outs are prancing into fame without even studying that much of their school life and yet they make it to the top?

Why is that you are choosing for us? Aren't we a democratic country? Can't we students, choose on how we live our education life instead of spoonfeeding us with bottles of information and all we just do is apply to our exams and forget them in the afterlives?

Why can't we choose?

Are we your guinea pigs?

You're not the one who's going to college. You're not the one who's going to have their next career up in their line. You're not the one who's going to live our lives. Aren't we the future?

Do us, ALL OF US a favour.

Stop messing with our education and get it right. Do what's best for the country. Think before you even decide. Do what's best for the love of our Motherland. Make this country, Malaysia a better place for us to live in, even without the moral values that we need to memorise, we still can make a difference if we all work together. Stop being a bitch and start thinking of the future of our country.

And lastly.

stop messing around with the education system.

DA Updates: Going Green!

2009-11-21T22:07:00.001+08:00

Going Green by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Nuff said. SAVE THE WORLD!

Totally, illustrated by me which explains the ugly transformation. ENJOY.

It's time?

2009-11-18T19:41:00.001+08:00

Yeah, I just sat for three SPM papers. BM 1 & 2 and Sejarah.

My thoughts?

So far so good. It's alright. I am quite satisfied with Sejarah though. BM 1 yes but BM 2 a little shaky there but still good enough to call it OKAY.

see you soon.

Sigh, how?

2009-11-14T14:27:00.002+08:00

i need..

someone to talk to.

but i keep pushing people away.

sigh.

i want to die so badly.

but what will become of me?

if you're hearing this.

i'm sorry.

i am.

i want us to be happy but i'm just making it bad.

sigh.

what should i do?

i am lost.

talk to me please?

well..i'm pretty sure you'll ignore me...

i'm on my own now.

From now and then

2009-11-14T11:00:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I don't know what to do. I finished tuition and I'm just here blogging for a while before I continue with my work. I had a very bad sleep. When I say bad, I mean REALLY BAD. I had two nightmares straight. Two and they weren't even pretty.

It was nonetheless, horrible.

I got up in the middle of the night, crying, whining, and my head throbbing.

Sigh.

So much for, resting.

That time of the month: Friend's Post 1

2009-11-12T23:46:00.007+08:00

Now this is the time for the FRIEND'S POST! Well, I'm studying sejarah at the same time but I decided to blog before I continued studying.

This is my friend, Catherine Woo Mei Min a.k.a Mrs Kang Dae Sung

(purposely wan >D)

Well I actually have more of this (muahahah) but I'll leave it at this for now. Well, I actually knew her in 2006 but we got closer in 2007. We got closer during the Deeparaya Concert where she was dancing the chinese dance thingie while I was in the traditional malay dance. So yeah, there you go. We got closer like I said during 2007 and that was truly a blessing in disguise. She's really someone I could actually turn to and talk to her even at bad times. Well she gets a little too loud at times..but she's never judgmental. She's always there when you need her and gives you her soothing words of wisdom when you need help. Then I still remember, we joined talentime and laughed our asses off during my sleepover. I still remember her stuff dog..it was like..blue I think haha!

I miss those times where we laughed and switch places so I ended up sleeping on bed and she on the floor. Then the next day I cooked breakfast for the two.

Well, then, we became really good friends even now. I still remember how we fangirled over Big Bang and that's when you set your eyes and fell in love with Dae Sung.

And now, he just proposed to you didn't he? In the most sweetest and epic way imaginable.

She's also Seladang's Loudspeaker and Fanclub captain. Seriously, don't mess. You wouldn't want to go around cursing Seladang or she'll just haunt you forever trust me. And then I still remember we had the HARDEST time thinking for our group name for talentime and we finally came up with it :)

Savage Rhapsody eh? I hope you kept our song though! :)

Hmm what else? Ah yes, Dae Sung. Her life revolves around Big Bang, Gaia, even weird things like the lion dance crank dat which was actually pretty cool.

I still remembered we were once called lesbians. Like wow. Because we HUGGED. I know, it's ridiculous but because she was having a hard time, I wanted her to feel better.

And look at us now :)

We're no lesbians, we're the bomb :D

And yes, cempaka voices. All those vocal exercises and weird times. I loved them so much and I am sure you do as well. I still can never forget how you still brought to your house by accident. Damn epic la. It was coincidental. It was like, muahaha. But it was fun. Your house's a legend.

I usually make nice posters for the pretty young lady and I can show you a few examples :)

The Lost Time by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

And take pictures~

Konayuki: Catherine by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

And make Dae Sung goodies for her

New Year Present: Catherine by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Dae Sung hot daymn by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Autumn poster by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

But most of all, I cherish all the memories and moments that I shared with you. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Life's a long road but every road will intertwine and we'll meet again someday. Someday when we're older, we'll sit down and look back and laugh it all out.

Because we're friends for life.

And friends, forever.

Forever's a big word but it gives so much more meaning when you're with the friends you bond and grow up with.

Thanks for the memories, my dear friend :)

the keepsake of my life :)

The one who walked in and made a difference in my life

Who inspired me

Who I can turn to

and most of all

who I am glad to have as a friend

Cat Woo <3

When there's good love.

2009-11-09T18:45:00.001+08:00

I saw the memories falling apart.

I saw the light ended.

I saw nothing but darkness.

That's how depressed I am right now.

it's falling apart slowly.

What's wrong?

2009-11-08T23:57:00.003+08:00

I did not go through this day without a single tear until now. Can you imagine that? I am fairly tired but still surviving.

Still surviving.

I will change my layout.

YES I will.

edit: Well I did. It looks happier now. Heh. I want us to be happy. The both of us to be happy. So, can we just forget about it?

Only you can hear it

2009-11-03T22:07:00.001+08:00

Who can know better than me
That your tenderness is like feathers?
Secret lying within my embrace
Only you can hear it
Is there still anyone who knows
That your smile is like a hug?
Really want to hide your goodness
Only I can see it
Standing on the rooftop only saying to the wind
Don't want to be pushed around
Originally hated the sky that rains
Until I hear someone say they love me
Sitting on the second floor of the cinema
Watching a crowd moving pass
How can the we of that day
Quietly smile for a very long time?

I think I am too dependent
In a moment ago hanging up the telephone
Persist in imitating a pure child
Quietly watching over this portion of love
Know I cannot be too dependent
Scared that you will spoil me
Your fragrance lingers all along
I cannot bear to leave

-Only you can hear my love calling out to you-

And to infinity

2009-10-27T18:20:00.000+08:00

School.

Very boring.

Like OH MY GOD.

*sigh*

ps: I miss you :( come back fast. Sail back! :(

A dedication

2009-10-20T23:00:00.002+08:00

My condolences to your family, Joanne. She's in a better place now and always remember, she still loves the both of you very much. Stay strong and never give up :)

Sincerely.

I have this fanfic

2009-10-18T11:08:00.000+08:00

Coming but too much sejarah :(

DA Updates: The Teenage Witch

2009-10-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

The teenage witch by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

More photography this time :)

Yes, this is Catherine Woo, my dearest friend. This was last year's shot so might as well put it in. I miss this. I want another HALLOWEEN! I miss Halloween. *whines*

So yes, I'll have more DA updates coming. I'm too lazy to post all in one.

Separate posts will be better yes? :)

Hahaha!

2009-10-13T19:16:00.003+08:00

Someone's reading my blog (I think)

and it's Khongers~ xD

I miss him la. He's in Aussie land, doing what the Aussie people do. And yesh, get your butt back so that I can say hi to you :D

Errrr yeaaaah, I'm actually bored. I am doing my homework. Actually almost done.

buttttt, I'm bored :)

and yeah..

Hi pandaaaa :)

moohoo!

-banana cow flying off-

DA Updates: Friends & Snow

2009-10-12T17:51:00.002+08:00

Like friends forever by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

The landscape of snow by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

My photographs! At last ;)

I'm happy with the outcome.

My last Sunday

2009-10-11T21:22:00.002+08:00

Wah, so epic huh? Anyways today I learnt something so so so awesome during Art! I learnt how to use ILLUSTRATION MARKERS.

OMG, YES I KNOW AND I AM SO HAPPY BECAUSE I, DREW A MAN (THAT LOOKS LIKE RICHARD GERE) AND AND HE TURNED OUT SOOOO NICEEE. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS JUST THE FACE AND YESSS..

GO HERE

HTTP://JOHNHOYS.DEVIANTART.COM.

GO GO GO

He has the best works ever and yes the end product of my Richard Gere look alike will LOOK LIKE HIS.

MEEEEH. YES I AM HAPPY BECAUSE SEJARAH MAKES ME HAPPY AND SCIENCE TOO. SO I LOVE MATHS.

errr..

okay.

I LOVE MATHS :D

Time to nerd

2009-10-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

My nerding started today.

And you know what?

IT FEELS GOOD TO BE A NERD :)

PS: I am proud to be a nerd :D

I can breathe & DA UPDATES!

2009-10-08T19:29:00.002+08:00

I won't take a long time for this update. Just gonna update you with what's going on right now. Setara papers are the shit. And I love my current layout. G-dragon is the smex.

And yes, more DA updates!

Umm, yeah.

As this darkness by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Anddddd..

I love typography by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

I personally like my layout the best :D

DA Updates: Already Gone

2009-10-01T22:19:00.002+08:00

For andey tham :)

Deviantart is GAY :(

Already Gone

Someone's gotta go

2009-09-29T18:38:00.002+08:00

I want you to know, that it doesn't matter, where we take this road, someone's gotta go and I want you to know you couldn't loved me better but I want you to move on, so I'm already gone. - Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone

Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? - Green Day, 21 Guns

I actually can really feel you right here, but my heart's empty because you're not in there. - Emmaneul

"Stop looking at the beautiful things outside and come and listen to me." "But madam, I saw you." - Sam

"SUR-BI-BOR!" - Junsu

"Give me some JUICE!" "Er, sorry I'm out of them." "Damn it! Picked the wrong girl." Jason and Lindsay.

"But what about Nurain's?!" "Hello~ I am NURAIN." - YS & Nurain (this is damn funny.)

"Yeah and they'll probably lock Gabriel in a cage- I MEAN Gandalf." "HAHAHHA. Just like my mom." Andey & YS

DA Updates: Loveless Wonders

2009-09-27T02:23:00.002+08:00

I am so proud of myself :')

Loveless Wonders by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

One of the best graphics I've done yet. Seriously, I was so inspired by yunyunsarang cause she is the AWESOMEST graphic designer ever. All hail yunyunsarang. After so long, from photography and now, I am able to produce this masterpiece. This is the inspiration I'm talking about.

Also, the yearbook layouts for Post PMR has been going so well lately! I really thank Bernadine and Silvian for the support and also, thank you so much Cat Woo for coming over and helping me out.

You see, ever since trials and forever, my mood for photography and designing died down tremendously. But now, it's back! And it will die down again. But I guess what Tara said was really, really inspiring :')

If you really love something that you love doing, then you will eventually make time for it.

I still remember I was a little girl, back when I was 12 or 11. My sister introduced me to photoshop. At first I started out HORRIBLE. Yeah, I still remember I used Paint and all sort of shit to photoshop. Then I remember, I never gave up. And I had my own photoshop then. So I experimented and made my first two WALLPAPERS! It was Bleach wallpapers by the way. I don't know whether I still have it but I don't think I have them anymore. But it was really bad anyway. So I started making some more wallpapers and icons and banners and I settled with my first ever wallpaper published out on deviantart which is this:

Prince of Tennis! Echizen Ryoma. Yeah, I know, it looked really bad. Hahah. But I tried.

A Wallpaper I made by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

DON'T LAUGH. HAHAH. It was BAD. But that time, it was really cool for me. Hahah! But it was BAD.

Oh well, time has changed me alot. I am alot better now but still need more work! Mada mada DANE! Lol, I still miss Prince of Tennis.

Okay, time to go! Beddddd :)

-ys

My list of ideas

2009-09-26T20:44:00.003+08:00

Things I won't do when I'm studying alone overseas

1) Whine or make myself feel miserable about missing home. I will miss home but I don't have to show it.

2) Get a tattoo. Not cool.

3) Smoke. That is not cool at all, seriously.

4) Do drugs. Big no no.

5) Sleepover people's house unless needed. Especially if it's a guy.

6) Stay at home and just study all day. Come on! Need to explore.

7) Overspending. Very dangerous.

8) Don't max out my credit cards.

9) Drive. Rather use public transportation.

(will be updated)

Things I will try out when studying overseas.

1) Clubbing. Need some fun yo.

2) Going for awesome expeditions or trips.

3) Buy more clothes for myself.

4) Get a job over there for internship. (sp)

5) Mix around with awesome people.

6) Travel alone. YES! (A MUST)

7) Surfingggg! Pretty please?

(will be updated.)

Similarities much?

2009-09-24T14:04:00.003+08:00

Recently I posted a fanfic few weeks ago and it was about male pregnancy. Yes, I know it is weird for most of you readers here but then I received a message from another author saying that her fanfic was very similar to my story.

This was what she said.

Hello, this is GreyInnocence.
We discovered your fic a few days ago and thought it was awfully similar to our fic, "The Mpreg Drabbles." We asked a few other people their opinions on the matter, and they agree that your fic bears an uncanny resemblance to ours. The fact that it is so similar and was posted just a few weeks after ours makes us think you got the idea from us. We don't mind you using the idea, but in the world of fanfiction authors and authoresses it is common courtesy to say "Hey, this was inspired by so-and-so" in your author's note. If you did get the idea from us we would be obliged if you put something in your author's notes about it.
Thank you!
-Katie and Scarlet

I'm going to be frank with this. First, I have never read her fanfic before. I didn't even know she was a using an idea like that. Now let's be general and open. My fanfic was inspired by a friend who loves shonenai as much as I do. I even admitted to the entire anime club that I really love shonenai and one day, we were talking about male couples when we stumbled upon mpreg because there was once she told she read a fanfic in winglin about male pregnancy.

I am not making this matter big, because I actually learn something from this and I hope the authors understand.

First, there is such thing as coincidences. I really didn't know they had a fanfic like that and I have never read it. It was only YESTERDAY, I read it and believe it or not, there wasn't much of a similarity between the fanfics only except for the some. It wasn't like I copy and pasted their ideas into my fanfic mind you, I have my own ideas too. I am not dependent on your style of writing so beat that.

I discussed with my friends and even showed them their fanfic and mine. She said, there wasn't much of a resemblance aside from the general idea they were using. Even I read it many times and I only spot a few which doesn't mean they have the right to actually accuse me for somehow taking their idea and not crediting their work. Yes, if I was really inspired by a fanfic I would I would credit them just like my deviantart where I credit the artist for their inspiration.

Ideas are meant to be shared like you said, but you really are making a big fuss out of it aren't you? So, I have explained it clearly and you aren't replying me which means you don't have anything to say do you?

There was also another email from, this reader, Katie (who I believe is the author of that fanfic) and the way you said it really pushed my buttons. I am not immature who finds excuses by saying is a coincidence. Because let me tell this to your face, IT IS THE TRUTH. It was a coincidence.

Well then, I am SORRY if I stepped on your pudgy ass or STOLE your content and ideas but seriously, because I have learnt my lesson before. And now, I will continue to post the story and let there be no more said.

DA Updates: Taylor Swift

2009-09-24T13:54:00.003+08:00

My comeback :)

Taylor Swift by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Well I'm too lazy to explain the process but credits to yunyunsarang for the awesome textures and yes, the brushes were created by me.

I know sucky quality picture but I tried.

Filtering was done by me.

Everything was done by me obviously. And thank you yunyunsarang and ryuusei illusion for the inspiration. It feels great to be back photoshopping.

-narugasawa@deviantart.com- you know you want to touch it.

Voice Acting is so epic

2009-09-24T13:48:00.000+08:00

This is so epic. Haha.

Get kicking

2009-09-19T22:23:00.001+08:00

I am proud to say this.

I got my spirit up by studying again. Yes, studying again. Sounds really ridiculous? But I realised if I do consistent studying, it might actually work so I won't feel much of the stress when the real day comes. Meh, should HAVE done it a long time ago with my other subjects other than Sejarah but screw you.

Tomorrow, is Nazmin's open house.

And I can't wait :)

Muahaha.

I watched Uncharted: Drake's Fortune. MAN. THAT GAME, IS JUST AS EPIC AS TOMB RAIDER but Nate's not THAT hot but he's got arms of Jesus. Omg, seriously. He scaled the freaking FORTRESS.

I need to work on piano. BAH. My skills are deteriorating :( It's badddd. I can't play Yiruma's Our Same Word anymore and it's a really nice song if it wasn't so choppy like mine!

*weeps*

Alright, gotta go cook some rice. (a.k.a studying)

ps: our same word ;) get it?

A new start?

2009-09-19T14:47:00.002+08:00

After the Accounts paper, I couldn't help but think and weep in pain. Wah so dramatic. But really. I actually called my teacher right after school to apologized for not doing so well in her paper. I believed she sounded quite upset. After all that hard work she pulled off and after all that exercises I did, I worked for it but the paper was hopeless.

I could do the questions but what really saddened me was that, I made so many mistakes because I panicked and was hoping I could pull it off but I didn't.

That really saddened me deeply.

So right now, my trials are over now.

SPM is on its way and I think I should do something about it. Yes, my trials results won't be as satisfying but what's more important is to focus on other papers. SPM especially. I won't weep and say it's too late but even if it is, I will keep the flow going.

This is my resolution.

of change.

All the best to the SPM candidates! My friends and yeah everybody.

It's just a few more weeks to SPM.

This time, let's make the best out of it!

Birthday post

2009-09-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUBI :)

Stay nice, perasan, sweet and AWESHUM :)

but of course, you can't be awesome without meeee :)

hope you read this nyahh!

TRIALS OVERRR! WHEEE.

why blue, cause not pink!

Crack that history

2009-09-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

Well, I have nothing to much to say. I am somehow calm. And I am kind of revising now so I will leave this alone.

Trials next week.

Good luck fifth formers :)

till then - ;)

Today is my official death date

2009-09-03T00:20:00.003+08:00

Don't be surprised if you see this on the headlines.

17 YEAR OLD, GIRL, DIED YESTERDAY. LAST SEEN, HOLDING AN ACCOUNTS LEDGER BOOK.

yes that's how horrible Accounts was today.

On a friendlier note, I finished my homework so I am proud. Feel my pain too, Andrea. Aside from that, I am really tired now but I still want to revise a bit more. Crap, I have Maths too. Shit, this is horror.

Man, I have English tomorrow as well. Crap.

ps: i am still feeling very bad. meh, i sometimes really hate you for some tight reason but at the same time, i can't.

I am celebrating once more!

2009-09-01T19:55:00.002+08:00

That my Facebook usage has decreased tremendously. Yes no more Facebook for me people :) Of course, I used all of that time for studying and I am very please with that. Yes shoot me people because I'm awesome that way.

Lately I think whenever I take a shower, the temperature doesn't really affect me anymore, I mean like especially when it's really hot. Well that's because I always stay in my air conditioned which blasts off bizarre coldness. So everytime I need to shower, I turn the temperature to a level where honestly, you wouldn't want to shower in that kind of situation.

So I have to warm my body up to an extent, when I come out from the shower, my skin will steaming. Crazy no?

Today was boring. Felt nothing like school. Accounts was boring, like really boring.

Doing Accounts now and Math. Meh, this is really boring.

Mini Ninjas!

2009-08-31T19:00:00.003+08:00

All the more reason for me to get PS3 and this game.

"We play this bitch on hard. We play Mini Ninjas on hardcore baby!" unquote Vash.

Release: September 2009

I want this game, please give me a PS3 and this game and I will worship you.

Caffe Latte

2009-08-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

I might have to sleep late again, no thanks to homework and revision.

ps: I love caffe latte. From Japan. Mt. Rainier. Awesome stuff. Should try.

and addition?

the package is so cute. like a mini grande.

ps again? i miss code hot.

I am quite enjoying this

2009-08-29T18:23:00.003+08:00

I am blogging from the new laptop! Yes it's a Toshiba and it's sexy. I don't find the problem with it maybe because it needs more getting used to or something but I find it okay. Well it gets a little hot around the keyboard region but I'm sure I'll do fine with it.

Well actually the new laptop is my sister's as she needs for her first term in LONDON. Yeah, that's fantastic. I would love to go there again and well, at least take a tour around once more. We didn't get to tour around that much due to our lack of time but other than that, it's awesome!

Honestly saying, the keyboard isn't that bad. JUST NEED SOME GETTING USED TO. Haven't blogged in a while. Yeah, I've been busy.

Gotta eat dinner, peace out.

I am proud of myself cause it's been a total of 2 weeks since I logged in facebook which means, I am not dependant on Facebook anymore! I can totally survive without it. YES.

FEEL THE LOVE BABY!

When I say I can't see

2009-08-25T18:24:00.002+08:00

Because all I see is you;

it's you.

When I say I can't breathe

2009-08-25T14:59:00.005+08:00

That means, I'm no longer alive.

now that's a question.

When you see this message;

2009-08-25T00:11:00.004+08:00

I am either dead or alive. Ah, the wonders of mysteria.

that is if you still get what I mean because if you can't, you don't know me very well.

I got two words to sum up my day.

2009-08-24T23:51:00.004+08:00

FUCK SKYPE.

like this day couldn't get any worse?

Taxi

2009-08-24T23:30:00.004+08:00

I walk the shimmering streets,
Trying to cover the times we can’t meet,
Your playful smile, after our hands had met for the first time,
Keeps reviving in my memories

Everytime you loosen our entwined hands,
I tried to hold onto the warmth,
Everytime I think I’ll be able to meet you,
My heart dyes with a beautiful shade.
Even the common things turn into memories when we’re together

Even your voice, even those fragile shoulders,
Even your eyes are not mine,
No matter how much I am by your side,
My feelings won’t come true
One moment’s dream; I love you to the extent that it hurts,
But tonight is ending

and you'll stop that taxi.

and wave goodbye.

and the embrace that we used to share.

disappears.

ps, because i love you to the extent that it hurts, even if you tell me how many times you're sorry, it doesn't change a thing. because i love you to the extent my heart breaks, i love you so much. nothing affects our relationship. i forgive you and it won't change a thing in our relationship. we'll stay stronger.

i love you.

i'm sorry for hurting you. do you still love me?

you still doubt after everything?

ESSAYS BOO YAH!

2009-08-24T19:49:00.003+08:00

I finished my essays! So right now, I wanna take a break from History and do some Economics. Just for the fun of it. I am starting to like my blog layout. I thought it was a bit too, x-rated because I used alot of obscene pictures and words. Omgosh.

So yeah.

just to tell you guys that because it's fun.

On a side note, I am actually excited because I wanna test a new camera trick I learnt and a new lens which I am going to buy and I want someone to help me out with it by being my modal.

(hint: Hello Andrea Tham, you know you can always call me)

I am just a click away :)

ps: you know you can always tell me when you don't find it interesting because i would be wasting my time talking and you just find it funny.

Survivor

2009-08-24T13:53:00.001+08:00

I survived extra class today. Now this is great! I am feeling the love. Right now I have history to study and do essays. Omg, I haven't been updating at all! I am such a bad blogger but right now is a crucial time for me to study and I don't have time at all to update.

But I just got back from my little shopping trip and got myself some new goodies. Like for example, pens, and NEW PENCIL BOX! YES, now it looks more clean now. Instead of the torn roxy pencil box which I have been using for 3 years already? I think two. But oh well, my new pencil box is much cleaner and it's transparent! So yay me! :P

Anyways, I really miss someone though. But he's having tuition now and I really hope I can watch UP! Yes, UP the disney pixar movie.

Up up and away?!

I need to study ekonomi too. Omg, so many things to do I feel so useless now meh. Haha, today I played around with Andrea's hair and oh my god, turned out like palm trees and mushroom. Dang it, should have brought my camera today. My boyfriend no. 2, Damien Canon :D

Oh well, I gotta go do sejarah now. So catch you guys later. Peace out!

Just to let you guys know:

1) I don't go on Facebook anymore so don't remind me about anything till after SPM. Because I'm awesome.

2) DON'T ask me for MSN because I don't go on MSN too except for Skype.

3) Don't ask me to surveys cause I won't do them.

4) And I don't use friendster so stop bugging me bitches :)

It's too late for you and white horse

2009-08-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

Today was the Merdeka Celebration and it was quite eventful. I was pretty happy today. For some odd reason. I was witnessing the body sculpture performance and it was quite interesting. Seriously.

I tried cartwheeling today after I came back from school and guess what?

Wah, I made a lamp crack! SERIOUSLY. That kindda proves my awesome 'flexibility'. Oh well, it was for the fun of it because apparently last time, I could do a nice cartwheel but now, it looks like some cramped up fishball roll (hint: HUI YEAN!)

Sejarah today was very stressful. Seriously. Oh and I decided to do this. I have decided, to.

PUASA :) as in, fasting. Pretty awesome eh? And no it's for a good cause, not because I wanna lose weight but I would like to know how it's like to fast for not just a week but for a MONTH. I think. Well, let's see how it goes.

I love skype now :)

Oh my lord

2009-08-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Yes I haven't been updating lately no thanks to trials. I have little time so I want to make this short. I actually quite like this picture, and what you are going to see now is a very happy picture.

This was taken during our photoshoot. Don't you think it's a nice picture?

Anyways, that's all for today. I have to go sleep soon so see you later :)

DA Updates: Photogrpahy- Code Veronica 1 & 2

2009-08-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

Now this is different. Instead of the usual graphics, I did photo manipulation and editing. So here's my take on it :)

Photography: Code Veronica 1 & 2

Code Veronica by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Code Veronica 2 by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

Both were inspired by Dior cause I really love my mom's shades. Yes that is me and NO stealing. Please and thank you. I was trying to go for the really bad ass vintage but it turned out quite decent. But I am quite happy with it so heck.

Tools?

Photoshop CS2, Photo Editor CANON, Dior shades and Chanel red lip gloss.

How?

Be stylish and be creative. Use every angle properly and find the right timing for it. Remember, 90% is your skill when it comes to photography but the 10% of it, is your luck. So when the tide gets lucky, click it! Mirrors come quite in handy. So use it for better performances. Or well, they are quite the trend aren't they?

Reviews from the deviant?

This is an interesting shot which I quite like. It can de better but I am quite happy with it.

Conclusion: You understand the concept? Narugasawa@deviantart!

Special Day much?

2009-08-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

Today is well a very special day for some reason I can't be sarcastic about it here goes nothing. Happy Birthday Adrian :) You're 16 and keep rocking. I am glad today was wonderful for yoy and though I didn't really do much except make those gifts but it makes me happy to see you really happy on your birthday.

I enjoyed myself today and I am glad that you enjoyed yours as well. Have a very happy birthday and enjoy the cake as well.

Monday blues! I had fun during Economics though. Andrea was super high today. And talk about retarded. Oh well, I still love her anyways. But there's nothing really to talk about now. So I'll talk about something random.

I am actually homeworking and somewhat revising. It's quite the challenge no? Lately I've been bloghopping and came across this one: In Darkness There is Light (well the url link is pretty obvious don't you think?) In any other case, I find his blog pretty interesting. A good read but I doubt he will be updating anymore. But well for leisure reading, take your time to read it.

Aside from that, school has been stressful no thanks to the H1N1 outbreak and such. Honestly, it's driving me insane already. I doubt I wanna skip school now. It's crucial time baby.

Did I tell you lunch today was SOOOO good? :) I am a very happy person now. Chicken Cordon Bleu. My all time favourite. My sister first cooked it for me and I could hear the angels singing. Yes, it was that good. Secret Recipe's one was quite okay but enough to fill my ever so empty stomach.

I am now a very happy person.

Well not really now that Economics is making me weary. I had only one hour sleep today :( So till then, ta~

Leap of faith

2009-08-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 10 in the morning, realising that I overslept. I shouldn't be sleeping at 5 am when I know I can't wake up and my brain needs longer rest. Oversleeping is something I should not pick up. Gosh, late night studying and homework has gotten pretty bad.

Actually, I really want to apologise to a certain someone for not showing up today. I feel really bad about today and I am very sorry for not coming. I was hoping I could come halfway through school but my dad refused to send me.

I am sorry for today. I just hope, you'll come online right now so that I can spray you a thousand of sorry and hugs. I went straight after school to look for you but I couldn't find you. And I had to go again because of my yearbook group photo.

Speaking of that, the jump shot was so awesome. Though we took about 20 shots already. But I'm glad it's working out so fine. Thank you Jia Yi for being a wonderful sister, and actually bothered to follow me and take the picture for us. Thank you.

I still feel really bad.

I really hope that feeling wears off anytime soon.

ps: i really love you :( so much. i really miss you so badly. come online now please?

For the man

2009-08-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

You're impossible to find.

even the notes can't find the right tune anymore.

you're just so impossible to find.

and maybe that's why.

i am content and i feel loved once more.

i love you :)

ps: to you.

DA Updates: Pop Art Wallpaper (Andrea)

2009-08-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

I'll skip to the best part :)

Pop Art Wallpaper: Andrea

Pop Art Wallpaper: Andrea by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

This was inspired by my malicious mind which I randomly put everything together and somehow, this was how the result was like! The girl is Andrea and credits to MJ for the picture.

Tools?
Photoshop CS2

How?
I don't need to say this. JUST BE RANDOM! SERIOUSLY :) But of course, be focus on what are you trying to tell people through your graphic. I am going for the artistic pop feel and using a very cute picture for such purpose is indeed quite a shot.

Reviews from the deviant?
I had a hard time trying to do this but I managed to pull it off but of course, I couldn't have done it without the help of people who had provided me the brushes. So thank you :D

In conclusion: goooo :) narugasawa.deviantart.com

Tuesdays

2009-08-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

I am extremely in a bad mood now. I have no idea why. It's always been like this ever since I started revision for my exams. It's getting pretty annoying. I can feel the heat really rising every second. One second I'm alright, and when things get too way out of hand, I erupt. I don't like this. It's very stressful. I haven't eaten yet which kindda explains my crankiness.

I am getting very agitated by every little thing lately. Not good, I NEED TO DESTRESS. But if I don't stress myself but and I get too relaxed, then that's bad isn't it?

I watched Batman's Arkham Asylum demo and I say it's a pretty good game, not too flashy but I simply hate the new outfits given to all the villains. I was glad enough that the joker's outfit remained the same way.

My mind is very stressed out actually. I only got 2 hours of sleep yesterday no thanks to my 3 hour nap in the evening. I get worked out even at the most little things. I feel there's this heavy burden weighing me down. And it's not coming off anytime soon.

Why is it I'm always weighed with such misery? Meh, that sounded too epic for motion pictures.

But seriously.

I actually quite like but hate today. I really do.

Tuesdays and I just don't click.

I got this off from someone's blog.

"The storm's gonna be over soon and we'll see the sun again but in order to see it, you gotta go through that storm to see a much more luminous one."

meh, i can't take that much of crap now but it works. keeps me motivated.

also what i'm upset about is also the fact i feel very insecure every now and then. in a way, my freedom is completely blocked out by so many obstacles. and of course, parents.

i feel so lonely. even if you are here with me, i feel just as lonely.

ps: what's going to happen next?

DA Updates: Pop Art Comic Strip (Dina)

2009-08-11T02:55:00.000+08:00

Well hello again! This time, updating on my deviantart! (Also to promote my deviantart) So let's give this one a go heh? Now I'm going to more graphic ones now so as you can see, most of my works are very much new to me as in, most of them are my first attempts. So excuse the very bad line up. I am quite a horrible designer myself haha!

Pop Art Comic Strip: Dina

Pop Art Comic Strip: Dina by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

This is a pop art comic kind of feel, well as you can see I used my friend (Dina)'s picture as the reference. I was inspired by Cheeser's blog where she was also inspired by the DKNY commercial based on the apple perfume they were promoting. So me being very free and tired and bored from studying decided to do this for leisure time. I had a hard time trying to get it right but all in all, I did it!

Here is the original picture of Dina before it was popped!

Tools?
Photoshop CS 2 and Paint Shop Pro (a little help)

How?
It's easy to do this pop art. Just follow the instructions and try. I'm serious. I'll prolly wanna do tutorials but I'm lazy so I'll give a brief one.

1) Select a picture of your own kind

2) Duplicate the layer and change the blending mode of the duplicate image to color dodge

3) Press ctrl I to invert the duplicate image which appears white not to worry.

4) Apply Filter> Blur> Gaussian Blur to the duplicate layer. Make sure you see the colour liningd of the image itself. Choose 9 at least or your own choice.

5) To remove the colors create a new Threshold Adjustment layer from the button in the layers palette. Adjust the slider until you see all the required details in the scene. Also create a new layer and paint with white color to remove the unwanted spots in the image. You are thinking why follow so many steps and just applying a Threshold on the main layer will give us same result but actually this method gives you more control on the lines that you don’t get if applied the threshold directly.

6) Create a new layer and change the blending mode to multiply. Start painting with different colors to different parts of the body on different layers.

7) To make a colored layer into halftone pattern. Choose Image > Adjustments > Threshold and drag the slider to the left until the color disappears.

8) Select Filter > Sketch > Halftone Pattern and move the contrast slider to the right and adjust the size of the checks and click Ok. Remember one thing colors selected as a foreground and background in the tools palette will come in the halftone and final output, nothing to do with the colors you painted in multiply layer.

9) Repeat the above steps for other layers too, except for the eyes and the hairs. That’s it. You can add talk bubbles or something else according to the script requirement or giving any different look.

credits to CG Arena.

Reviews from the deviant?
It's a pretty hard work. I took like 2 hours for it because I made a TERRIBLE mistake which I have to start all over from scratch. But the outcome wasn't as bad. I wished I had stroked the picture to make it stand out more but I guess it's already okay. I will do better. Just wait for my other little comic strips! I am doing more for my friends if I have the time.

That is all for today :D

In conclusion: NARUGASAWA@DEVIANTART.COM

My Catherine Woo

2009-08-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

First off birthday shout out!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOO MEI MIN :)

You're 17 now and it's a big age. It's one step closer to our last year of high school and we'll be departing ways for colleges, uni and what not. Thing is, I'm glad we have gotten closer over the years and it's really great that we both are still having the same bond. Though we may be different in well many ways, but hey, that's what makes both of us, nuts and retarded.

So my little walnut, have a great birthday and many much love from your hazelnut :)

Why?

2009-08-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

If life was like an hour glass,
watching time slowly slip away.
Wonder what I would do
to occupy my day?

Watch and weep as time comes near,
with head buried in my hands.
Or enjoy every moment
just as God had planned?

Ride a horse, play the drums,
chase a butterfly or two.
Give my mother precious hugs,
uhm what else could I do?

Show my friends they are dear,
dance under starry skies.
Watch a sunsets orange-red glow,
get lost in my lovers eyes.

If only I could plan ahead
how my last days would be spent.
I'd cuddle close in your arms
till my spirit was heaven sent.

ps: do you wanna let go?

DA Updates: My Mind's in Disturbia

2009-08-09T13:10:00.000+08:00

I will be starting a section called DA updates which stands for Deviantart Updates because my new blog needs to have more life! Need more interesting updates soo here you go! I was inspired to do this when Ken opened his own blog especially for his soccer updates so I was thinking, "Why not open one for DEVIANTART?" And bam, here we go!

My Mind's in Disturbia

My mind's in Disturbia by ~Narugasawa on deviant ART

This photo edit was inspired by Memoirs of a Geisha but a scary version of it. I spent 1 hour on reducing the noise of the picture and playing with the levels, contrast, curves and bam! I got it done. It was hard work considering I was absolutely very terrified when I edited the picture and the outcome was truly something I never expected. Ah, the wonders of photoshop! The edit was also inspired by Rihanna's Disturbia.

The original was like this.

Make Up Mayhem/Make Up gone wrong!

Yes can you imagine the look on my face when I saw this? But it was a good effort! I kind of like how she looks at you hurt, and upset. Like she's actually mentally disturbed. Kudos to Catherine Woo for the great make up effort and well, actually she took this picture but I edited it. Quite interesting if you ask me.

Tools?

Just photoshop CS 2 alone.

How?

Well, firstly, I used reduce noise to reduce the level of noise in a picture and used filter for the paint effect. Then, I used levels and curves to bring out the picture more. Then I used photo filter to give the tinge of brown. Then I used apply image, soft light, green for the first layer. Then the second layer, I layered another layer of orange brown and colour burn it but softer around 30 and THERE YOU GO!

Reviews from the deviant?

It needs a lot more work but I'm quite satisfied with it since it's my first time doing it. It's quite the challenge but I'll keep learning :) Aside from that, I think this was a good effort. Considering I hate photo editing but now, I am enjoying it very much!

In conclusion: GO NARUGASAWA@DEVIANTART.COM AND COMMENT, REVIEW, FAVE! :D

(such shameless advertising! haha)

How did it go?

2009-08-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

Well, like I said, yesterday's surprise was an epic fail but I had fun being the waitress for like 2 minutes. Anyways, the food, was awesome. I really like Bubba Gump's food. It's soo good and the company, most importantly was so nice. You know I'm thinking of having my sister's birthday here then :D because the company's really niceee.

Other than that, I am thoroughly happy.

I had tuition today. It was funny. I survived two hours of it without any pain.

Sooo, I'll go wondering around right now with photoshop.

Worn out

2009-08-06T18:50:00.001+08:00

PS: Nyeeeeeeehh :) moo.

I am tired. Really tired. I haven't been blogging like I always do. That is because I'm so tired. I'm not even hyped about Datin's birthday tomorrow.

Oh well.

that's all?

will edit :D

Way beyond

2009-08-05T20:21:00.001+08:00

You know, I just had my studying mojo a while back. It was interesting. Haha, first Accounts and now Econs. I haven't been reading my storybooks lately or to say novels no thanks to Econs, Sejarah, Math, English, Science, Accounts, what not. I am already sleeping so late, technically my bed time is already 1 am instead of 11. Just minus another one. NOW, that is horrible.

Aside from my unflattering eyebags which Voon Fei proudly announced to the whole world, my immune system is very much futile and incapable of producing any more security.

I am falling asleep every now and then. This is indeed not a good sign. I should go shopping tomorrow for clothes, and food. Yes, food is so important to me right now. When I'm absolutely stressed out like this, I need food. I want a mini refrigerator! But I don't think I can, because I'll probably gain more weight considering my exercise rate is ZERO.

And MSN is being super GAY with me :(

I might die from all this haze. I'm falling sick. Wait, I AM already sick :(

stupid nose. stupid flu. MOOOOOO.

anyways, I shall continue to mourn my sadness. so, goodnight world.

Song dedication

2009-08-04T17:03:00.000+08:00

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Without knowing

2009-08-04T16:43:00.000+08:00

I am terribly sick today. But I went to school anyway. Well, I'm back home quite early and missing someone terribly. Other than that, I am indulging myself with piles of homework. Some need to be due tomorrow, which really sucks. I am starting to like Accounts, after doing some of the exercises today. But I still hate the yuran chapter which I failed for.

Hello, welcome to my boring life. Meh, I need to be more interesting. Oh! You know, I have really funny dreams lately. Like how so many people were involved in it. Amanda and Mithra were even in my dreams! Haha, and well someone too. Aside from my weird line of dreams, I had a VERY bad sleep yesterday.

Now, that you cannot blame me. My ulcers and my throat were being very gay. They ached so badly, I was sweating and crying. It was that bad. I swear, I can just die sweating. Either way, my day wasn't so bad if it wasn't for my BLOCKED nose.

Why does this always happen to me? It proves, lack of exercise leads to poor and weak immune system.

I need to exercise damn it! I can't just stay at home all day and do nothing! This really sucks. I realised Bab 9 of Sejarah F5 is really boring and long but interesting. And doing notes for it, doesn't make it any better.

Right, I'll probably blog more but I'm tired right now and I need to do homework. And it's already five. WOW.

ps: ilu :)

Heaps of love: Andrea

2009-08-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

Monday blues. Seriously, my issues with Mondays never end. Other than being widely entertained by Andrea, there's nothing much about Monday. I just realised how Andrea is so adorable. Seriously, she is like the epitome of adorable. Ah, see Andrea, I love you so much. (not cheating on someone!)

Let's get epic right now.

So first picture up is,

Now this is your new mascot, for the Cute Fighter Club. Hahah. With a freaking retarded pawprint (done by yours truly) and puffed up face. Today, she was being so retarded. Like a freaking retro retard. She makes absolutely the weirdest sounds and scoffs at the weirdest times. But well, that's why I love Andrea :) (again not cheating on someone)

Well actually, Andrea may look very innocent

But in actual fact, she makes alot of people shit in their pants when they see this

You see this shit? It belongs to you >D

Well, sometimes you know, she gets a little nasty and all but it all comes to a fact that she is one of kind, funny, adorable, sweet, lovable, huggable, rape-able :D and also very very very cuddly and kissable.

Remember all the good times we had?

well now that was quite fun wasn't it and..?

FAME! (tak jadi!)

In conclusion, I wub you Andey :)

You are indeed a royal pain

2009-08-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

As you may say, this morning, while reading economics, I got terribly bored, so what did I do? I went to watch a disney movie, and I must say not the best title for a movie but oh well, let's get some review done okay?

Plot?

The story is very typical, honestly saying. The princess is in trouble, and then she was sent to this care protection (namely called PPP) and then she has to leave her country where she is located at another place where no knows. She meets an American girl and tries to blend in with the rest and the girl doesn't like her at first but sooner or later, they developed a friendship and then the movie ends with them being happy and yaddy ya.

Typical but it was rather interesting. Princess Protection? Lol. But it kindda gives you a feeling that you may think all princesses are dumb blondes but this one isn't, which is a relief. So the plot isn't very exciting but it's quite worth a watch.

Characters?

Demi Lovato portrayed her role very well in my opinion. Not only she pulled it off but her posture and everything is just exactly like a princess. She really had this absolute flawless look for a princess. But somehow she looked extraordinarily beautiful like seriously. I find her so entrancing and dashing. She appears to be much more humble and intricate compared to Camp Rock. She plays the role of Princess Rosalinda/Rosie in this movie.

Would like to have a cup of tea with me?

Selena Gomez on the other hand plays the role of Carter Mason (now you may think it's a boy's name but trust me, it's not what you think.) I think she portrayed quite well for a tomboy and sooner or later, as the movie goes on, she finds her inner princess and gets all girly. She really nailed the tomboy attitude when she drank the milk out of the carton and deliberately threw pizza dashingly everywhere without noticing and how she fishes out for crabs and you know, you get the drift.

Do you feel lucky, pal?

Of course there are more minor characters and every minor character must have a dumb blonde or evil queen, but we can call this one, dumb asian. But they gave her a very blonde name which well, kindda wraps up the fact we have to call her, dumb EURASIAN?

Jamie Chung plays, Chelsea Barnes. She's a suck up really. And I don't think she's even that rich but despite her father being the King of Yogurt, she's really not all that Queen Material. Just go look her up yea?

Overall?

Not too bad, I'll rate it 3.2/5 because like any other disney movie, it gives about a moral value.

you may think princesses are superficial, care about how you wear or look? maybe a little on a look but it's also what you have to offer to the world. Friendship and honestly, you cannot get these things but you have to earn them.

yeah I edited it a little. Nyeh. But, overall, good movie but bland plot.

Commencements

2009-08-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

It was amazing. My last performance. Man it feels so sad don't you think? I started going for Commencements last year and this is my second time going. I went last year for performance but this year, I went there for performance and to read a citation for Zhuo Ren for his award.

I must say, I feel very proud of Zhuo Ren because reading his citation made me feel so pumped. Anyways, I think read quite okay. At least, people clapped! Omgosh, I thought they weren't going to clap at all. I hoped my levels were good. Haha. Dinner, I didn't eat a lot for dinner honestly.

Rice, squid and chicken. It wasn't that good but not too bad either

Choir was great! It was so good. The best choir performance so far and it will be my last too :( The candles really sucked. It made me almost slipped. But it was soo good. Looking back, it really made me happy. I'm glad that I joined my last choir performance and it went so well.

I am going to miss Commencements badly :( And I would like to give a shout out to my dear friend, Andey Tham! She performed the school song twice and it must have been really scary for her but despite her stage fright, she was still able to pull it off so well. I'm really proud of you. You were really awesome that night and I hope you get more opportunities like this cause not everyone gets to sing on stage all the time.

Once in a while people would really love the spotlight and it's great to know you're finally stepping up. I've always known you since Form 1 that you could sing quite well and then later on, you shined out through out the years without knowing.

You and brother are both natural when it comes to singing. I do hope you appreciate this gift from God that He bestowed you with a beautiful voice that will illuminate your path.

So Andey, keep on rocking :P

ps: nyeh!, i miss you.

Make it all better

2009-07-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

My heart is aching badly. Very badly. I just don't understand why there's been so much going on lately. From my timetable, to even my personal life. It's aching so bad, it can break any moment.

So why is it I keep telling myself that it's not your fault but mine? :(

I am going to read Zhuo Ren's citation, which is quite interesting because he's my good friend and I'm doing him a favour. Well, I learnt my lesson, somehow. About doing things and about doing a lot of things without knowing your motives and standards.

I can't wait for Commencements. We are the opening of the whole performance line or like what you call it, we're the stars of the first spotlight heck yeah.

Sigh, my heart is aching terribly.

ps: it hurts but it's not your fault. so i'm very sorry.

Big Splash Update and Commencements Preparation

2009-07-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last big splash. Seniors of 2009 stood on the edge of the pool, preparing for their best moment of their lives. When we leaped in, and crash into the pool, making a tidal wave; our hearts inside roared.

It doesn't matter who won the House Cup because definitely, everyone was more interested in the jumping part. But congrats to Seladang for the win. After years of downfall, you proved yourself worthy of getting the house cup. So, congrats! :)

Of course, we've been so busy with homework and Commencements. I'm still part of the choir, singing the Beatles Medley and also, I was hoping we could wear floral dresses but we're still stuck to our colourful tops and black skirt. WAHHHH. Oh well, I really miss someone right now and my mic is being gay with me :(

My mic worked! Miraculously! Yay, so yeah. It worked and I'm happy.

Meh, I need to post pictures.

Buttttttt, meh, I want big splash pictures! Which I have none. Oh, I hear myself typing!

ps: meh, ilu :)

When we were always like one

2009-07-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

I love this picture nyeh. Let's make it last forever.

ps: As you can see, I added to new sections and deleted one. Yeap! The twitter section! Finally, I actually wanted to update my twitter. So I'll catch you guys later. It's 1.44 am.

Two's a charm

2009-07-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

This is my second post! I feel excited now. Lol, so today I managed to sit comfortably during assembly (well don't ask me why) and seems to be everyone was really sick, especially the prefects. Meh, Catherine didn't show up today so, moo!

Lesson learnt: Never sleep in front of your macbook.

My face is like half burnt already! Man, this is disgusting.

Oh yeah, just to tell you this. I haven't eaten white rice for like a VERY long time. No thanks to my mother who changed the white rice to RED/BROWN rice which is yes healthier and red apples, replaced with GREEN APPLES. Also, we're having salad everyday for breakfast. How retarded is that.

And my source of Milo, GONE. Replaced with, fruit juices! (talk about health conscious) Just imagine the sad face right now. On my face. Just really sad. I mean, it's GOOD to be healthy but man, why all the good food must be poisonous? But I really love dragonfruit orange blend juice today. I thought that was really good.

Aside from that, school was relatively boring. I fell asleep during Ekonomi like the last few minutes of class. Art was stressful as usual. Oh my goodness, I swear, I would like to drop that subject right now. I really would!

I fell asleep twice today. I need to get more sleep. Alright, time to do homework. Catch you guys later.

ps: my dog is so cute! i twisted its legs :)

hold me right now, i want your embrace.

As you can see

2009-07-27T03:12:00.001+08:00

I spend this entire night, rediting the codes and well, it didn't turn out so nice but at least I learnt something. Ahem, well. As you can see, livejournal isn't turning out well as I expected it to be so I created another blog for my daily uses. Coherent setences people and emo time too because everyone needs their emo time.

I have finally complete editing the html tags! And it's 3.25 am. And I have school tomorrow. I would love to skip but I have to meet a certain someone in school or else he'll be sad and upset. So being a very good girl, I shall go to school tomorrow and die like a rabbit. Anyways, this is my new improved blog. Livejournal was just a tester (guinea pig!) but then again, I might miss livejournal.

But I prefer blogger for some reason even if I hate using it. Livejournal is good but blogger is always my choice after all. Meh, I should really stop moving blogs anymore. It's making me very sick.

Let's call this a new beginning.

I hope for a better tomorrow and also, a better studying day.

ps: YES! The image is up! I hope someone likes it :)